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Doubt
yes i'm doubting myself
juz 13 wks left
can i make it thru?
where's the optimism?
the past wk seemed very long
the pressure of 3 white bars on ur shoulders...
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.:Vince left his dream on 5:37 PM:.
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HaPpY
JoY
SaTisfAcTiOn
Its been a really really long time since i felt like that!
Wad in the world could make me so so HaPpY at this point of my life?
MAF, of course! :):):)
Never regretted going back for MAF last sat
In fact i would hav AWOL if i'm forced to miss it
All my friends, classmates, huangcheng ren, juniors, seniors teachers and everyone i noe in college
Its great to c u guys again:)
The last time i went back to college was to collect my a lvl results
now i noe how it really feels like to come back as alumni
for a current student, its juz different
this is my 3rd MAF
the 1st was helping to set up crazy game stalls for huangcheng
the 2nd was to come back n play wif the huangcheng juniors in the middle of mugging for a's
now, the feeling's so much much different!
I'll always treasure n nvr forget my days as a student here
for these r the ppl that have make a significant impact in my life in one way on another
How i wish time would juz stopped and everything would still be the same
but den
time has to move
we have to move on
to go on our separate ways
to move on with our own dreams n lives
nothing remains the same forever
Now there r those leaving overseas to study
frustrated n angst @ not being able to send off yuyin at the last min
due to military reasons
uni, overseas, ns
Everyone has their own committments
When'll be all come back tgt again
and talk abt the good old times?
juz like ruixiong said in his blog,
Mayb 5 yrs frm now when everything's stabilised
den all of us could meet up for meals like how we used to
yea i'm looking forward to that day :)
Singing tgt the college songs
唱一首华初的歌
holding hand tgt in a big circle
its these moments that make u
happy
like i said before
i'm not a guy who shows his emotions on his face
but i'm really happy n touched on MAF
Its the meaning of it, that really counts
such occasions, such friends, people u knew
that will push u on in life
an extra motivation
even so in the difficult period now...
No more military stuff in this post
there's more to life than tt!
i'm going to connect myself to the world again
no more degen!
HAPPY
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.:Vince left his dream on 2:22 PM:.
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Another wk passed
Another wk closer to commissioning
haiz...
the more u tink abt it
the more slowly time passes
well i've began to 看开 le
this is a journey tt i muz go thru
and i will :)
The last wk have been particularly exciting
and ShAgGeD OuT of course
Finally got a taste of wad an engr does in a war
and its definitely challenging
physically n mentally
but i'm glad to hav survived this field camp
slping inside the tonner was a luxury
and i really learnt a lot
getting fucked (by instructors) is juz part n parcel of life
(Now for more civilian stuff)
So its maf this coming sat
So looking forward to it:)
Its been a while since i stepped into hc
the place tt hold my memories for the past 2 yrs
excited to c everyone again!
esp the huangcheng peeps! :):):)
Very long nvr c them alr lor...
It always feels great
to remind myself tt i was once part of this wonderful group
tt we once worked tgt to put up a good show...
Its been a while...
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!
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.:Vince left his dream on 5:22 PM:.
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