::Time seems to be playing a joke on us i wonder. Approximately 40 more days to the prelims and around 100 days to the A levels. Time is really running short, and a lot of things are still undone. After looking at bt2 overall results, i seriously need a miracle for my A lvls, to improve at lighting pace maybe...Look at the state i'm in now, i don't know how bad can i get...

Here's a breakdown of all my bt2 results:

GP : S (nothing to say, augy the walking dictionary-cum-thesaurus is my tutor. Compre was just pathetic, 0 for AQ, wtf??)
Maths : U (Drop from B last time, but cannot be blamed cos of the killer paper, few survived...but then maths remains 1 of the subjects which i'm really confident of)
Physics : U (Improved by 100% from last time but still fail?? Wad the hell, is this a joke? 1 mark away from S, quite sad...and we were the worst class for physics)
Econs : C (pleasant surprise, but take into account that we only have to mug 1 topic for essay, which is super slack, i never really touch on econs during hols..)
CLL : B (I guess this remains 1 of my better subjects, maybe its due more to my crapping ability than my mugging skills...Remains the only subject which i had not failed since entering hc)

４个字 : 惨不忍睹!

Its exactly the same at bt1 results, no significant improvement at all! The more you mug, the more you fail? What's the point of mugging? I definitely mug more this time than bt1 (whether its enough or not is another thing), but still? Mug for wad? Really got use like that! Nothing's changed, everything's still the same! Or maybe this is my true capability after all.

What now? Am i really losing it? I think so

My confidence is shattered. In deep shit i'm. I know i'm in trouble. I know i've to put in more effort (All my tutors are telling me that...). But is that enough? Time is already not on my side...and so little energy in me...

No matter how many times i shout Fuck, its no use at all.

I need to rebuild my confidence fast and find motivation to chiong the remaining days...but how? How to build your confidence when you mug and find that its no use? Operation chiong was supposed to work i thought? I was wrong...

Am i tired? No i'm not. Its too early for me to be tired, there's still a long way to go, i can't be tired now.

I'm so lost right now, will i ever find my way?

Don't regret doing the things i did, and never will.

We should be doing lots of fun and exciting stuff at 18-years-old, instead of drowning yourself in piles and piles and piles of notes. My life seems like a joke too, even i myself am a joke...

I think i'm getting crazy.::

.:Vince left his dream on 7:29 PM:.
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