A turbulent week has passed...Just when some people around you are celebrating the end of blocks, getting crazy, and also trying to suan you, the truth strikes! Damn, there's still physics waiting on monday...not that i'll really chiong during these 2 days anyway...

How to sum up the blocks until now? SCREWED, that's the perfect word. Well, except C.Lit, when my crapping skills really come in handy. Jus hope that i can get some 'decent' marks of that. C.Lit remains the subject that i stand the most chance of passing...

Guess wad i did yesterday? Went to play pool wif bryan, yeo, kinwai, sherman and puikit when our(me n bryan) blocks still haven end...cos i was not really not in the mood for physics and was mentally drained after the C.Lit paper. Didn't had a good game though, was rather noob, missing shots n giving foul balls like crazy, maybe my mind was not really on pool...Bryan was asking me if i really went crazy by playing pool in the middle of blocks...Its not a matter of feeling stressed. I dun tink i'm even stressed at all becos of the blocks, and that's a problem. Blocks seems to be of a lower priority in my mind...I dun seem to care too much about it...when its supposed to be of TOP priority.

Jus came back from a treat by eugene, our dearest lights senior and one of the BEST followspot operator! Quite rare to see him giving treat, which we had at Marina Square Swensens. He still hasn't changed much, and going to army soon, where i can have my fun there next year.

So monday's the end of blocks for me. I guess I'll be quite indifferent when the time comes. Whether it ends or not will not make a difference to me. My spirits won't be as high, and my mood won't be as good. I thought my life will be back to normal after huangcheng, but it didn't.

I seriously dunno wad is happening to my life these days. Everything seems to be in a complete mess. And I dun feel like doing anything at all…

Maybe its because of the post-huangcheng blues, maybe I’ve still not recovered from that. It’s true that I really miss the good old days in huangcheng, the fun and crazy times and also the moments of despair, anguish and sadness…I really dun mind doing everything all over again if its possible.

Maybe I’m juz not able to face up to reality and still living in the past, or worse, running away from reality. In a state of denial...

Looks like my block tests are really screwed up, even before it has started. I TRIED to mug, but it doesn’t seem to be working. Nothing seems to get inside my mind these days. Staying at national library from morning till night doesn’t work as well. Maybe I’m still not in a proper state of mind to mug. I’ve totally given up on it…no way I’ll pass with my current situation…I never thought I can do well anyway...

Maybe everything’s juz part of life, and life sux, seriously...