::1 week left to the day of the release of the posting results...A day that will be anticipated by all, yearning to know if they have made it to their dream jcs...There will be those who rejoice, and those who cry...No trying to be sadist here, but its the complete truth. For me, maybe i'm quite stable to stay, but i'm still not taking things for granted and keeping my fingers crossed...

To everyone awaiting their fate out there: it doesn't matter which jc you go to, success depends on you!

For the terrible o levels, its over and let's not think about it. We have been down before, and rose again, there's no reason why we can't do it again...and I will contribute to the best of my ability. O's are over, and now, let's fight for the A levels. Everything starts from scratch no matter how well you did for the O's!

Just realised that my fitness level have dropped tremendously due to the period of never-ending mugging to the build up of the o levels and slacking during the long holidays. It time to train up for napfa ahead, and more importantly, for army :) Surprised that we'll be having swimming lessons next week for PE, its been ages since i last swam, where did i chuck my swimming trunks? I guess i threw it away...::

.:Vince left his dream on 1:56 PM:.
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::X-country has finally ended. It was quite a fun one, one that tests the determination and ability of one. Due to tactical change, i have to replace Qi Hui last minute for competitive run. I hadn't really run competitive in x-country before this whole life, so why not try? I managed to finish 1/2 of the distance without walking, becos i noe if i start to walk, there won't be any more motivation to run again...

I just stopped running when i went out to the road. Along the way, i actually overtook Lan Guan, racing on to finish 187th overall, which was quite disappointing since i targeted a top 100 finish. Never really tried my very best...Qi Hui then went on to clinch 2nd for mass run...I guess the incentive for competitive run was the earlier moment to drink milo, which were in "limited edition" .

Having been training with weights at the school gym for the past 2 days, really need to train up for the upcoming napfa. Its quite crazy lah, and i felt pain all over my body. Maybe my muscles are tightening and growing...More consistent training needed to build up my muscles!!

Tutorials and assignments piling up real badly. For now, my academic studies is in a perfect mess, partly due to 黄城...and i need some time to organise my studies back in order and keep up with lectures. I have never neglect my studies so much before...::

.:Vince left his dream on 10:15 PM:.
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::The journey has ended, but not in a way we desired. We flung, we screwed, we freaked out. Use any words you can think of, for what's done can't be undone. Its over, its all over. There's nothing we can do. The class of 2005 will go down as the worst in history. Just as Mr Lee said, this is the darkest ages in the history of Catholic High.

I was shocked. My mind is in a complete mess. How did this happen? I may have achieved a good result, but we did very badly. I can't seem to rejoice, and don't feel happy at all. I sensed the disappointement in Mr Lee and our beloved teachers.

The worst! We are the WORST batch ever. A few days ago, i'm still confident that we can thrash everyone. But somehow, it doesn't turn out that way. Gedeon was the only consolation for us, with 10 perfect A1s. He's too good for me though. When i heard about the pathetic results in the morning, i can't believe it. I tried to convince myself it isn't true. But i have to accept it. How can we suddenly drop so tremendously?

When i went up to receive my results, my expectations were lowered. If i can't stay in HC, then so be it. But fortunately, i achieved my target, and once again, English was my weakness with a grade of B3. Its a dirt in the result slip.

The sky has darkened to a threatening state, and its pouring...Maybe heaven is crying for us. The atmosphere was so different. It seemed intimidating and silent. We seemed to be in hell. Even Mr Lee can't seem to say more words. I've seen him so sad and at loss before. No Cheers no nothing. We have let everyone down. We have disappoint everyone. Mr Lee, the teachers...who have put in some much effort and commitment in the hope that we can bring glory to the school, but we failed.

Many of us did worse that our prelims. It really feels sad to see some of my friends break down, when they couldn't stay in their current jcs.

Just when did it went wrong? We are back to square one, we have to start all over again...Our teachers have done a great job , its all our fault. The last thing we need is to blame each other. We have to reflect and think through. We will come back stronger. This is just a setback, and we will never let this happen again.

We will be remembered as the batch who pulled Cathigh down...Sorry, Catholic High

Once a Cathigh gentlemen, alway a Cathigh gentlemen!::

.:Vince left his dream on 11:55 AM:.
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::Its here, its finally here. 1 day more to the dreaded and most anticipated day for many of us.

I've been trying to calm myself down and not think too much. Come on, you have done your best and did what you could, there's nothing to be afraid of! Just go out and i'm sure hard work will be rewarded :) which is the message i want to send out to everyone. Everyone is worrying about it, diminishing my efforts not to think about it, and i'm sure all of us can make it and reach our favoured destination!

Its no doubt a torturous period leading to the o levels. Sacrifices have been made. Time have been spent. Hard work has been put in. This long journey will end tml. Do or die? Make or break?

Come to think of it, Fri is not only for ourselves, but also a huge day for Catholic High too. Will be be able to rise to the occasion and show eveyone that we are the best? I remembered last year when we sec 4's assembled with our seniors, watching Mr Lee announced the good new, and our seniors collecting their results slips. And now, its finally our turn!

We have been improving year by year in the results and all that. It was the best last year when our seniors lifted us to the top. They can be considered lengendary, but we will be the next Golden Generation. This is a very strong term mind you. I have the guts to say it because i believed in it. With higher and higher standards being set every year, we cannot deny the fact that the pressure heaped on us is terrifying.

But fret not. All those pressure count for nothing. I'm sure we, the class of 2005, can surpassed what fantastic results our seniors have achieved, and even make history. I seriously believe in it, do you? I'm sure we will be remembered as the Golden Generation! Let's show the cathigh spirit!

Sian, tomorrow still got school until 10.30am, but i'm ponning :) Will anyone be in to the mood to study?

I'm currently blogging in the sch com lab...lol!::

.:Vince left his dream on 1:03 PM:.
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::This might come a little late, but i'm really over the board during the CNY period, its the time for me to be crazy...

I went back to cathigh on the celebration day, and was nearly in tears...When i board the bus back, i realise the whole bus was loaded wif cathigh ppl from nj and hc, felt that shouting gong jiao at that time but its a public place. Felt very fortunate to be able to see my old friends again, when all of us gather and unite at the place we came from...Everyone chatted about their JC life and cool experiences, being filled with surprises and excitement.

When we reached the sch gate, it was the all-familiar environment in front of us, the place that has accompanied me throughout my last 1o years. Its the third time i've came back this year, and i began to grow emotional. Meeting our beloved teachers, who have offered us everything they could, made me utmost grateful to them. At the same time, i also miss their lessons...mr heng, mr suah, mrs alice long, mr krishnan, mr tan ping hock......

We 'barged' into the hall to view the cny celebrations, and cheered really thunderously for the sch, and just then, mr lee said one touching phrase 'the old boys are back!' I really can't describe my feelings upon our return...

For the rest of my cny period, it was gamble, gamble and more gamble! It has became a part of my life. The excitement you get, the techniques and skills you learnt from it, although i can't deny that its mostly luck...The angpao collection was not bad too, consider that i had to take my angpao money to gamble. Blackjack, Big2, majong...all are our favourites, lol! Hopefully i'm not addicted...A fun-filled cny this year for me!

Watched I Not Stupid Too and Fearless this week. I must said that both are really top-quality shows. The fighting scenes in fearless are cool and violent, a hero who went down and was enlightened, while I Not Stupid is something of a blend of laughter and tears. I really cried while watching this touching movie.

Judgement Day is year. O levels to be released somewhere in the next week i presume. I'm really very worried about it. Time to calm down and believe in myself. I have tried my best and did everything i could. Its up to fate to decide my future. Therefore, I'm prepared to accept any kind of result...::

.:Vince left his dream on 11:35 AM:.
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