~My Diary~

2010-12-16T22:57:00.002+08:00

My life is all about training, training and more training.

If u really wanna do well in something, u've got to put in the effort.

If u wanna be better than others, u've got to put in more effort and them.

If u wanna win something for the hall, u've got to fight for it,

wif everything u've got.

I do feel a bit like a professional sportsman now,

or rather, this is the closest feeling i can get to being one,

prob is, we dun get paid.

I juz luv the feeling of satisfaction after training.

LET'S GO THRASH ALL THE HALLS MAN!

2010-08-26T15:59:00.002+08:00

3 weeks into the start of school n i've finally hav time to blog!

Oh well, now i'm slacking in D406, which i've considered it to be my new home.

Since i only went back to my hometown Bishan for only 4 hours last weekend.

Parents have been kaopei since i've stayed too much time in hall already.

But the balance has to come sooner or later, to keep everyone happy.

Time management and organisation skills will ready come to handy in hall life.

But in another sense, i'm really enjoying sheares now.

This is a place with a unique culture and friendly ppl.

This is a place where you won't feel like being confined or doing DO duty even if u have to stay behind on wkends.

This is a place where true friendships blossom.

Even if u dunno each other well enough, spending 24hrs a day tgt for almost everyday a week would bond us tgt really well.

To sum it all, i would become an emo boy if i were not staying in hall, which i can't imagine.

Imagine taking an hr to go to sch for a 2 hr lecture and den an hr back home and den study n den sleep, and the next day the cycle repeats...

Tt's definitely not the kind of life i desire.

And the fun's jus started!

:)

2010-05-02T12:06:00.002+08:00

TIME TO KICK-START MY DEAD BLOG!

not joking this time round.

This is my first post in ages,

and my first visit back to my blog in months.

God knows what has happened here

Even my tagboard is filled wif spammsss

To hell wif those who spammy tagboard
(esp those baka bastards hu used my name)

I dunno who u r

I dunno wad u wan

But i'll find you,

mark my words,

and i'll kill you.

I need to improve on my bballing skills,

and many hours of dedicated training and committment are required.

Problem is,

where do i find all the time?

esp when i'm on double job now

Exercise has become a privilege for me

But heck,

somehow i'll squeeze out the time

and perfect the art of bballing.

At the crossroads now,

where i'm not too bad, but also not too good.

There's only 1 way to go,

and tt's to improve.

Everyone has their signature trademarks

Choi has his mobility, flexibility and crazy shots (aka Lebron)

Sherman has his amazing dribbles, lay-ups and impossible floaters, and also his lethal 3-pt game

Fong has his super butt power and domination in the paint and superb rebounding ability

Bryan (hasn't played for quite a while) has his killing range near the paint and his immense size and physical ability.

But what do i've?

Seems like i do not have a signature style

Sometimes i try to do everything,

and ended up messing up and confusing everyone.

What can i do for myself?

What kind of player shld i become?

Of course, i would luv to be able to combine all their powers tgt and become a unique guy myself.

But is tt possible?

Not if i dun believe in myself.

2010-02-19T19:51:00.002+08:00

I always thought that relief teaching was one of the best post-ORD jobs,

well, in terms of pay n hrs,

but i was awfully wrong this time.

The amount of sai gang thrown at u is endless.

TO manage kids without any prior experience can be a killer.

TO manage parents, oh well, ur worst nightmare has yet to come.

Whoever says we can zao at 1300hrs everyday is obviously lying,

or has never been in the job before.

True, we are NSFs in the teaching world,

inferior to those REGULAR teachers,

but the amount of work n expectations is definitely way above normal NSF standard.

N we are as usual, underpaid.

Before this, i always thought tt 65 bucks a day is good money for ppl like me,

but judging by the amount of work thrown at me,

we r confirmed underpaid n cheap labour.

R we paid for staying until 5 or 6 everyday to complete our work,

when we r free to leave at 1?

R we paid for bringing scripts back home to mark?

R we paid for working over the wkends, over CNY?

Not to mention the array of random arrows and saikangs.

Ppl thought tt me, who came out army as an officer,

is able to handle kids much better,

but let's face it,

STUDENTS r not MEN!

You can't juz throw xtra, confine them, charge them or do wadever u wan.

You hav to answer n find better solutions.

Also, i can drew a few similarities wif army.

Kids like to act blur,

teachers like to protect their asses.

They follow SOP strictly n do things

You also hav to protect ur ass as well.

Oh well, isn't it the same everywhere else?

All these taught me 1 thing,

you have to have the burning passion n patience needed,

in order to fight on in the world of education.

If not u'll be out of the job in a blitz.

Money was never my main motivation in joining.

If it was, i wld hav quit by now.

Trying out jobs n learning life skills r my main drive.

To see the kids grow, get better, learn new stuff n score higher grades is the biggest motivation itself.

You work not for money, not for glory, but for them.

JiaYou to all the struggling relief teachers out dere (like me)

This feels worse than when i first went to my new unit as an officer after i commissioned.

2009-12-07T10:42:00.002+08:00

It so rare that i get an urge to blog nowadays.

But this is definitely not following motion!

Congrats to all those who finished stand chart yesterday! :)
(Especially myself haha!)

For those who ran their hearts out in their virgin marathon,
(yea me too!)

the experience is definitely amazing!

To be able to survive the whole ordeal

is no easy feat.

Past training have finally paid off.

We are all proud to wear the finisher tee,

definitely one of the most hard-earned shirts in my life.

I'm now one of the less than 1% of the world population,

who can boast to have ran a marathon before.

And to complete it in 4h 55 mins,

a fantastic shocking sub 5 timing,

what more could i ask for?

The process, experience, motivation, torture during those 5 hrs,

not many challenges can compare to that.

At the start line,

you start asking yourself

why are you paying to torture yourself?

But the rewards are certainly sweet.

Not to mention some piss off occasions,

whereby some bugger pour 100+ on my adidas shoes.

A man ran wif 1 arm missing

A man ran and push someone on the wheelchair at the same time.

Old aunties and uncles who ran faster than you.

Things that motivate you along.

especially when you start to walk.

If those guys can do it,

y me, an able-bodies young man cannot??

We still finish wif open arms in the air.

Proud to be a finisher of 42.195!

This is

The time of our life!

2009-11-11T14:24:00.002+08:00

Its always sad to go...

The first day of a civilian being.

With a pretty weird feeling in my heart.

Things that you have been doing everyday for the past 2 years,

suddenly you are out.

suddenly you stopped doing it.

suddenly you dunno what to do

or what will happen to you.

Weird eh, isn't it?

The journey has ended,

a new chapter of life begins.

New challenges ahead.

Jus the same as this period a year ago.

A war has ended,

but another war has started.

All this while,

I might not be able to fulfill the goals i set,

but at the end the day,

when you touch your heart,

and feel that you have not let yourself down

its enough already.

I've learned a lot during this while,

Of Mature thoughts and a better attitude.

Values which will no doubt gain me an edge in the future ahead.

I've enjoyed my time here.

to be able to make it to this stage,

not easy at all.

Tried to extend my stay but MISSION FAILED!

Well, mayb its the right time to leave after all.

Looking back at the first day in Tekong,

when i gave my pink card to some 3SG,

before meeting my falcon mates,

till now,

when i got it back,

I guess i've become a better man.

The transition to a civilian

Civilian or NSF or regular,

It doesn't matter.

Once an officer, always an officer.

2009-09-24T15:27:00.002+08:00

"Its time to move on"

Wonder its how long since i last blogged sth abt personal life.

Guess recent events really stirred me a bit.

Hai, but do i really care so much?

Of muddy waters and a crater on the floor

The day when all of us syncho our leaves and went ubin instead.

A long overdue trip.

Peddaling all over Ubin

Leaving biking tracks along the way.

Its been a while since i felt so carefree and so close to nature.

But weather wasn't kind at all,

when we had to stop at least thrice due to inclement weather.

Ehh but come on...we are are soldiers!

Although the lower body hurts a bit.

Wonderful experience as it seems

Ubin's not tt big anyway.

How abt climbing over the fence

to catch a full view of the quarry?

Or trekking thru the swamps of Chek Jawa,

Looking at the tree that never dies in the middle of the deep waters

or having enough ballz to struggle thru the broken jetty,

where the ground moved and creaked as you walked on top of it.

Anyone wans to book the chalet hse @ Chek Jawa??

The same old Thai temple since 6 yrs ago,

when i last set foot here wearing a CaTHiGh shirt

for my camp @ the NPCC campsite

Dun forget to ask the Aussie babe to take pics for us again next time

Hope u guys are not too shag.

Jus kinda make you forget your troubles and into fantasy

Reality check comes in

when you reach changi jetty.

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Let me tell u sth

We are officers

We are strong

We take things like a man

We move on.

2009-08-31T22:50:00.002+08:00

Future on the rocks

Will i stay on

or move on?

Will i spend a longer time here

to fulfill my ideals?

Or being thrown into the wilderness?

I've did wad i could

Wad more can i do now?

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Never felt like this before

Never had i imagine we would need to emphasize it so much

Y dun we get the respect we deserve?

Y r we being treated like the rest?

when we do so much more,

they tink tt its our job.

But we dun receive the recognition we deserve.

I dun wanna use the word "cheap labour"

No more sucking thumb!

Unite and we shall receive.

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2009-08-26T12:50:00.002+08:00

Less than 3 months left

haven sign yet

time is running out.

To tell the truth,

life here isn't tt fantastic

when every1 treats u like a nOOb

or get you to do all the shit jobs

Looking forward to my 2nd bar

DESPERATELY~~

Its time to get away from the "nOOB" TaG

and show the world what i can do

And i will change things

I'll sure i'll

Make a difference

before i leave for good

2009-06-28T11:39:00.000+08:00

Linkin Park – “New Divide”

2009-06-12T15:57:00.002+08:00

"Sheng shi,

I understand already,

Even if i do everything,

I might not be able to change anything

But if i don't,

i can't move on,

i can't face the world.

Fong,

Have u found ur answer?

Even if the world leaves me, hates me, abandons me,

I'll fight on,

for the future we live in,

as a commissioned officer of the singapore armed forces."

2009-06-12T15:52:00.002+08:00

Looks like i've neglected this place for quite a while.

Is it cos i'm satisfied with my life?

That's why i dun feel the urge to blog?

Or is it that this place no longer holds any meaning to me?

Ppl say i'm quite emotional here.

Oops, u've seen the other side of me...

Am i hard on the outside, soft on the inside?

I dunno

but this is just who i'm.

2009-03-22T19:57:00.003+08:00

Finally i remembered!

That i still have a blog

Alive and kicking in this world!

Seems that i've been too lazy these days

to log onto blogger and spam my feelings

but here i'm :)

This blog is not dead!

Firstly, congrats to those who jus commissioned yesterday

as true officers of the singapore armed forces

hope ur will always uphold the officer corps

n the pride n honour of the ur sword

We were not given a sword for nothing

I've been wondering,

especially during recent events

what it takes to be a good officer

apparently those things that they taught in OCS and ETI

didn't work out here

I wasn't prepared for all these!

Ever since cadets

we were deemed to be superhumans

things that u think its impossible

u always did it

its always like that

and u look back with laughs and smile

now the challenge is even greater

SUPERMAN i suppose

but dere shouldn't be anything that fazes the young officer

3 months on since that faithful day at SAFTI which i've waited for 9 months

i'm still learning how to be a good officer

no one says its gonna be easy

jus like what CPT Alex has told us

i still remember

just before we boarded the bus back to SAFTI for joint term

"The war's going to end

But another war has juz started..."

But let me tell u something

i'm not juz here to do my job

i'm going to make a difference

to touch people's lives

to make them learn

To all the new guys,

pls uphold the officers corp

dun forget wad u've learn during cadet days

keep the flame burning, or even brighter, when u attain the rank from the president

n most importantly,

dun let it die

I believe in myself

and my fellow batchmates

I won't disappoint myself

and the others around me

I dun commission for nothing

If u dunno how we commission

pls ask the president

I believe in officership

Do u still rmb the creed?

2009-02-26T21:23:00.002+08:00

GOLD

yea i did it again! :)

Ippt GOLD!

haha thanks to daniel for conducting and justin as safety

hey i'm still as fit as when i was a cadet!

Hello to 200 bucks more in my pocket!

Looks like i'll continue to wear my GOLD badge until i ord

But then, which officer dun hav ippt GOLD?

Of course there are lah, the minority

How do u motivate ur men to try their best

If u urself can't even get GOLD?

Haiz but still lose to jing kai in 2.4

i need to be 10s more faster

9.35 is not good enough

But i'm still proud of my 60 sit ups

Looks like SBJ stopped being a hindrance to me as well.

And chin ups, i still continue my own usual chin up regime too!

Actually GOLD also no big deal lah

Then i blog for wad? LOL!

2009-02-10T22:46:00.003+08:00

How does it feel like
to be running up 60 stories
of the republic plaza

How does it feel like
to be right at the top
The top of the world
The end of 60 stories, 280m above sea level

Yeah it was my first ever vertical marathon
n boy it was fantastic
was overtaking ppl @ the 10th storey alr
in the end i complete in 13.22
cos we started walking from level 20
nice odac frens tt sherman introed
rarely see sporty gals ard these days

it was juz fantastic
i feel proud of my team

2009-02-03T22:14:00.000+08:00

Now i noe the difference between officers n men
now i noe y i'm the officer they r the men
now i noe y i'm from ocs they r not
now i noe y i'm commissioned for
now i noe...

2009-01-27T11:11:00.002+08:00

Its been a while guys...
have been dao-ing my blog...
but here i'm

happy chinese new year to everyone! :)
although this yr's ang paos r not really that much for me...

getting used to my new working environment
and my new roles and responsibilties
its true that u really look at things differently
when u get that bar
from an officer and cadet point of view
but the desire to become a pc still linger inside me

looking @ that sword in my room
the journey i've been thru
its not easy

Charge a guy to DB for the first time last tue
cos of AWOL
now i noe how it feels to charge someone...

i wanna do sth

2009-01-01T22:13:00.000+08:00

2009

the year of ord

11 months is not a dream anymore

2008-12-23T22:14:00.002+08:00

phuket

phi phi islands

great place

juz came back 2 days ago

my so called graduation trip

1st time going overseas wif juz frens

outstanding experience

its fun planning our program, finding our own accomodation, transport n stuff...

now tt we r back

back to reality

its time to stop dreaming

although its tempting to stay dere n not come back

2008-12-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

2LT Lim

A Commissioned Officer of the Singapore Armed Forces

2008-12-08T00:15:00.002+08:00

Its been a pretty eventful day fer me :)

morn bball wif sherman n co. as usual n bishan active

den went home n chiong to marina sq seoul garden for lunch wif

BMTC FALCON COY PLATOON 4 SECTION 1 mates

n the special guest is:

SGT Brandon!

yea damn long nvr c him already

we sat for like 3 hrs dere?

sword-of-honour jinkai willing to treat..

its been a while since we gathered

still remember my bmt days

n will nvr forget

look, ocs is such a selfish place!

anw, sgt brandon's car is damn cool!

i wanna get a car like him! :)

After tt went for engr platoon bbq @ wen hao's place

oh well, how much could i still eat den

after a pretty filling buffet

dere's seriously, lots n lots of food...

So, 37 wks down,

1 more wk to go

i'm looking forward to booking in tonight

ACPC has appointed us as all officers

n my sword

"71/08 OCC ENGINEERS
2LT LIM ZI JIA VINCENT"

OMG

wad is tt? 2LT!!!

feels a bit weird

mayb cos too used to being called oct alr

37 wks of torture doesn't come easy

how do u noe tt u r ready to lead?

motivation coming frm within

think team n abt others ard u

is tt clear so far? :p

dine-in wasn't bad

when u don no. 2

u start behaving like a gentleman~~

The OCS spirit was not tt nice after all

mayb cos its too diluted

but den we noe the end is near

its so close tt i'll miss safti

rmb ur days as a cadet?

they might juz be ur source of motivation

hope it doesn't rain or 13 th dec

the day of the DFST COMMISSIONING PARADE 71/08

is tt clear so far?

2008-11-30T19:34:00.002+08:00

YES i'm CLEAR SO FAR!

typical ssm haha!

1st wk of joint term le

particularly suck thumb

esp when u r under delta wing

got 2 nights out but too lazy to book out

cos hav to report to delta for ro!

anw parade rehearsal was hong gan

no wonder its the 3rd most impt parade in sg

high standards r expected

rehearsals r....much worse than expected

at least the result will be fantastic

i'm looking forward :)

seeing the tango lads everyday

doing stuff tt i've done last time back dere

really brings back lots of memories

time really waits for no one

i shall be myself

i shall....

2008-11-23T19:30:00.002+08:00

I'm a JoInT TeRm CaDeT!

ocs charlie wing

bye bye eti

bye bye nee soon

like wad captain alex said

its the end of the war

but the start of another war...

2008-11-18T23:03:00.002+08:00

YEAH i'm BACK frm CRESCENDO!!

3 more wks to the big day

dfst comms parade 2008!

can't wait for it

going back ocs this fri

can't wait to see my frens again

esp the lads from tango

of course, my former instructors as well

thailand was fun...really

i finally understood the role of an engr in a war

but dere's much more excitement to tt

too much things to share wif everyone

dunno where to start

guess i'll nvr forget wad happened dere

i'm finally back in sg

crescendo's finally over!

not to mention the lan shop n ps @ the canteen

shivering wif 2 jackets in the middle of the night

weather's very irregular here

ranging from very hot to very cold

but at least i survived

and made it back

home...

i still dun c myself as an officer though

much more to be learnt

but i noe i've been thru 35 wks of training

end is near

in 3 wks

and i shall stand proudly @ the parade sq

i shall...

2008-11-02T16:50:00.003+08:00

6 more wks and 1 last test

crescendo

the final challenge

in 2 hrs time i'll be @ the airport

waiting to fly to the place where i'm looking forward to

thailand

80km separates me and the black bar

will i come back in perfect condition

or will i go crazy?

i dunno

all i noe is

i'll complete it

i'll go thru everything

and make everyone proud of me

13 dec is not far away at all

i'm looking forward to crescendo

the light @ the end of the journey

i'm beginning to see it

this shall me one of my greatest achievements

of course, wearing no. 2 in shangri la for dine was once-in-a-lifetime exp as well

hey i cld be a gentlemen if i wan right?

route marching in east coast wif everyone taking pics of ya as if u were exhibits

not to mention the vj gals

the last wk had been awesome!

i'll only be back in the early hrs of 18 nov

dun miss me guys

cos i'll miss everyone

esp when u shiver in the middle of the night

unable to slp outfield

crescendo

bring it on! :)

2008-10-19T15:40:00.002+08:00

Sigh...

Booking in in less than 4 hrs time

somehow i juz dun feel tt enthu this wk

a little moody n down

maybe cos exercise is coming

my last local summary exercise before thailand

this exercise is like prelims

the big qn looms

am i good enough to be a sir?

thailand is..wad else? A lvls lah

Juz drew my no. 1 n 2 yesterday

outstanding

nvr had i thought i'll hav the chance to wear tt

and i assure u i'll!

How'll i look in the parade square?

8 wks from now?

2008-10-12T20:01:00.002+08:00

can u believe it?

9 more wks to the big day!

how near can it get?

finally reach single digit le

wif thailand as our last challenge ahead

yea looking forward to the end

dun care abt anything le

juz dun care

grit my teeth n survive the last 9 wks

as a cadet

the end is near

i can sense it

everything in my way

i shall overcome!

Went to the airport to send off shengshi last fri

seems like he'll be away for quite some time

until next april to be exact

talk about do sai gang for saf in brunei

really pity him

does he deserve it?

And saw the latest octs going brunei as well

it was the same feeling back den

when i was last here

wif brunei looming

not knowing wad'll happen to me down dere

but now, being dere done tt

a couple of exercises n thailand

as the only obstacles in my way

only a fool would give up

Let's chiong tgt guys

right to the end!

2008-10-01T00:33:00.003+08:00

OUT

yea finally

after a wkend inside camp

alone with my buddy and another guy

due to some stupid mistake

shan't tok about it

when i woke up on sat morn

it does feels like will smith in i'm legend

when every1's gone

u r the only guy on earth!

Its my first time looking @ others marching out to the gate

while we are still here...

and missed f1 last wkend

fuck...

well, at least its over (for now)

happy children's day everyone :) :)

every1's a child at heart!

2008-09-14T17:37:00.001+08:00

Doubt

yes i'm doubting myself

juz 13 wks left

can i make it thru?

where's the optimism?

the past wk seemed very long

the pressure of 3 white bars on ur shoulders...

2008-09-09T14:22:00.002+08:00

HaPpY

JoY

SaTisfAcTiOn

Its been a really really long time since i felt like that!

Wad in the world could make me so so HaPpY at this point of my life?

MAF, of course! :):):)

Never regretted going back for MAF last sat

In fact i would hav AWOL if i'm forced to miss it

All my friends, classmates, huangcheng ren, juniors, seniors teachers and everyone i noe in college

Its great to c u guys again:)

The last time i went back to college was to collect my a lvl results

now i noe how it really feels like to come back as alumni

for a current student, its juz different

this is my 3rd MAF

the 1st was helping to set up crazy game stalls for huangcheng

the 2nd was to come back n play wif the huangcheng juniors in the middle of mugging for a's

now, the feeling's so much much different!

I'll always treasure n nvr forget my days as a student here

for these r the ppl that have make a significant impact in my life in one way on another

How i wish time would juz stopped and everything would still be the same

but den

time has to move

we have to move on

to go on our separate ways

to move on with our own dreams n lives

nothing remains the same forever

Now there r those leaving overseas to study

frustrated n angst @ not being able to send off yuyin at the last min

due to military reasons

uni, overseas, ns

Everyone has their own committments

When'll be all come back tgt again

and talk abt the good old times?

juz like ruixiong said in his blog,

Mayb 5 yrs frm now when everything's stabilised
den all of us could meet up for meals like how we used to

yea i'm looking forward to that day :)

Singing tgt the college songs

唱一首华初的歌

holding hand tgt in a big circle

its these moments that make u

happy

like i said before

i'm not a guy who shows his emotions on his face

but i'm really happy n touched on MAF

Its the meaning of it, that really counts

such occasions, such friends, people u knew

that will push u on in life

an extra motivation

even so in the difficult period now...

No more military stuff in this post

there's more to life than tt!

i'm going to connect myself to the world again

no more degen!

HAPPY

2008-09-01T17:22:00.003+08:00

Another wk passed

Another wk closer to commissioning

haiz...

the more u tink abt it

the more slowly time passes

well i've began to 看开 le

this is a journey tt i muz go thru

and i will :)

The last wk have been particularly exciting

and ShAgGeD OuT of course

Finally got a taste of wad an engr does in a war

and its definitely challenging

physically n mentally

but i'm glad to hav survived this field camp

slping inside the tonner was a luxury

and i really learnt a lot

getting fucked (by instructors) is juz part n parcel of life

(Now for more civilian stuff)

So its maf this coming sat

So looking forward to it:)

Its been a while since i stepped into hc

the place tt hold my memories for the past 2 yrs

excited to c everyone again!

esp the huangcheng peeps! :):):)

Very long nvr c them alr lor...

It always feels great

to remind myself tt i was once part of this wonderful group

tt we once worked tgt to put up a good show...

Its been a while...

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

2008-08-25T10:19:00.002+08:00

YAY! I completed 10k in 50mins!

AHM was quite fun ytd

It was the furthest i've ever ran in 1 shot

Although 1/2 of the people weren't really running,

i had to weave in and out to take over them

The view was nice along the way

especially when u are running juz beside the sea

my 1st time ever running along the marina area

and my 1st time seeing so many people running tgt!

Commandos wayang as usual

all gathering at the 9k mark

and sang in cadence towards the end point

wish we could do tt too haha!

we ran across the ndp floating platform

which was constructed by engineers :)

My legs ached like siao after the run

and couldn't really walked properly for the whole day

but i'm proud to have finished it :)

Also saw many of my frens

all the way from pri sch to college to my seniors!

So this wk is a long wk with a short break

going back camp later...sian

i guess i need more motivation this week

2008-08-18T21:03:00.002+08:00

4 straight days in the civilian world

how good can it be?

booking in straight after i finish this post

the more time i'm out in the world,

the less i feel like booking in

but den all of us muz be professional abt it ma...

mid course gathering was so-so

feels like going back to my chs days

like an all guys class outing

the treasure hunt wasn't very fun

at least we did took pics wif 3 gals eating fries @ macs

which was one of our quests...

east coast was not a bad place for outdoor activities

and with almost all of us bare bodied walking ard everywhere

i guess anyone could guess where we were from

"eh say we r frm vj leh"

zzz

tt concludes my 21st wk in ocs

and 1 whole week of planning n presentation

phew

we planned like frm 8 in the morn till 12am in the night almost everyday...

a new wk starts...now

2008-08-10T13:33:00.002+08:00

Today is sunday

And i'm still waiting for my book in timing

supposedly its mobilization week

which means they will suddenly sms us and call us back to book in

as simple as that

Juz went to my usual pool sessions wif the 6j gang

and we were debating about the different motivation levels of men n cadets

and how much i dun wan to become a staff officer

They were screwing me up about wanting to become a pc

tinking tt i went crazy, like sherman

self-motivated ppl who wan to lead men

Its a choice, its about pride

As a staff officer, its 8-5 stay out everyday

air con room do admin work

but is it the kind of life i wan

after going thru so much shit?

I wan to lead ppl

to c them grow

to find a meaning in army

that's y i'm gonna work hard to become a pc!

Yay this fri engineer cadets will be having fun at east coast!

Feel free to catch us doing stupid stuff~~

2008-08-04T17:16:00.002+08:00

uni starts today...

2 years later...

somehow it juz doesn't feel right

to see those gals ard u packing off to uni

starting a new chapter of their life

excited abt everything

n i'm juz staying here @ home

wondering abt my upcoming tests for next book in tonight

y am i stuck here?

y am i not joining them in uni?

the life of an sg guy...

those ppl out dere

u'll nvr have imagined how much i wanna be in ur shoes

so stop dreading abt sch~~~~!!

But on another note

19 wks of ocs has juz passed silently

yes i'm halfway dere :)

to be able to survive this far

there's no turning back already

fight on till the end!

19 down, 19 more to go

Hey 13 dec isn't tt far away after all!

to those starting sch

JiaYou in ur quest to become a mugger again!

haha but try to enjoy uni life too

i'm sure it'll be very very fun...

2008-07-27T15:01:00.002+08:00

the past week have been terrible

finally it has ended

We still booked out on fri

when we marched to the gate it was 2359

feels like its back to college days again

lots of lectures, praticals n tests

of course, failures too

pro term is not gonna be easy

2008-07-20T16:12:00.002+08:00

Juz went to watch dark knight with ashhao gh n xings

seriously a show not to be missed

of course, christian bale is beginning to look like my favourite actor

can't wait for the next batman film!

2008-07-13T15:09:00.002+08:00

Its amazing

how i find myself not being able to express well now

my way with words have been deterioriating

haiz...

first 2 days in engineers have been quite okay

at least we've been propagandaed on the importance of engineering in war

white horse in my platoon sia

so is tt good or bad news?

anw, the cookhse food is damn bloody GOOD!!!

It has gonna be one of the top cookhse in singapore!

I tink i need a tutor

for engineering of course

next 2 wks all lectures and practicals

lots of things dun understand...

22 more wks to commission

still a long way to go

but at least its closer now..

2008-07-09T15:06:00.002+08:00

BACK!

Yea back from the land of brunei

Welcome to the real jungle :p

tougher than expected

but quite great experience

at least now i can be proud of myself

to survive through it

Never will i forget the brunei days

(well, maybe i'll forget the m n m's, aka mosques and museums...)

climbing up and down knolls

conquering mt biang!

drinking stream water (which tastes better than normal water)

nearly gave up? Maybe

Harbouring was fun

At least we found some great "5 star hotels"

Respect the jungle!

Now all set for pro term!

2008-06-28T22:49:00.001+08:00

brunei

wad's there to be afraid of?

take it like a man

Am i ready for it?

combat engineers

seek strive excel

advance and overcome

2008-06-22T17:26:00.002+08:00

This would be a very short week

My last week in tango wing

Yea, and then i'll be off

Will come back around november

I'll miss tango and everyone

Its always like that, isn't it

When u come and build relationships

And then when all of us are very close together

Having been through so much

We are being forced to separate

Why?

I realise such things happen quite often in army

Cos u never stay in a place with the same group of buddies for long

but the relationships we build

the ties we forged

will be deeply engraved in us forever

Goodbye tango

Thanks for...everything

My 3rd bar?

Here i come

2008-06-08T14:01:00.003+08:00

3 more weeks till the end of service term
27 more wks to commission?
Nah i've stopped counting down alr
Or rather, its better to look forward to every training
and trying to find some meaning in it

3 days straight without sleeping is ShaG!!
Marsiling is an emo place when u can see civilisation
in the midst of ur mission
U've reached a condition when ur body cannot take it anymore
but its the mind tt pushes on
and when everything ends
u've another story to tell those around you
Tell them tt u killed a tiger?

Some people i know are leaving overseas to mug
its seems like every1 is going off in their own ways
and we are being separated
And it can be quite difficult to bring all of us back tgt again

Hey narnia wasn't as impressive as its seems after all
watched it wif the usual 6j gang, aka bryan rara sherman yeo pui
the 6 of us bestest buddies will stay tgt always
ppl that i'll feel at ease wif

juz went to visit my grandpa
he really lonely now
since the death of my late grandma
living alone and having nothing much to do everyday
really worried abt him sometimes
yea i shall visit him more often whenever there's time...

our seniors are commissioning this sat
seeing them march back in no. 1 every night
i get really emo
esp on the night when we returned from field camp
when u look at them in their smartest no.1
all of them look so cool n confident
and when u turn to look at urself
wearing a muddy dirty uniform tt turned brown
waiting to wash ur boots...
there's still a long way to go
but nothing will stop me!

so this is it
no more complains for the entry
i've begun to 看开了
its a journey tt we future leaders have to go through
i'm proud to be a CaDeT! :):):)

2008-05-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

cherish before it too late
why?

2008-05-23T10:55:00.002+08:00

~~An innocent boy silently turns 19~~

Still can't believe its my bday ytd
Guess time really flies in the blink of an eye
Its my last year as teenager le
The prime years of my life are ending
And i'm getting older by day

Never really feel anything ytd
Cos i spend it doing platoon battle course
chionging here and dere
After the 12 day field camp
so shag until i nearly forget my bday
until some frens wake me up in the middle of the night
at the strike of 12am
to sms me happy bday...

Thank you
Thank you to every1 hu've wished me happy bday in one way or another
Thank you to those who wanted to wish me but forgot lol
Thank you to those who rmbed my bday,
tt there's still such a boy in this world who juz turned 19 on this day
Thank you for the bday song:)

It was really heartening last night
when i came back home at ard 11+
enjoy the last few mins of my bday
eating the red eggs my mum made for me
Somehow its the most tasteful red eggs ever

Guess its juz the simple things in life which i really appreciate now
which is one thing i learn frm ocs

I didn't die u know
I came back alive
to see myself as a 19 yr old
12 days in tekong nvr kill me or anything
Mayb i feel weaker now
but the mind is still there
i juz need to recover

If ever there was a bday wish
its none other that to commission as a true officer
Somehow this bday feels very different frm all the other 18 bdays
and yet most impt to me

Am i more mature now?
tt's for u guys who r ard me to comment
After all, i really dun wanna grow up
cos life changes a lot once u do
y can't we juz stay as carefree teenagers forever
but then, its juz part of life
Been thru a lot for the past yr
esp wif a lvls n army looming
tell me, everyone
how much hav i changed?
is it for the better or worse?

Wad i've been thru in the last 12 days may juz change my life forever
u may feel very shag
but sometimes ur mind tend to wander off

so everyone out there
i'm officially 19 now:)

2008-05-11T13:07:00.003+08:00

12 DAY FIELD CAMP HERE I COME!!!

EXCITED N READY!

I'LL BE BACK!:)

AS TRUE MEN!

its time to do wad u've to do
time to prove wad u can do
time for ur true colours to show
12 days will pass fast
whether i'll change or not after these 12 days
i dunno
but even if i change, it wld be for the better!
:)

2008-05-02T10:02:00.002+08:00

~~~GOLD GOLD GOLD~~~!
YES its G~O~L~D!
My first gold for ippt in army
One which i really worked so hard for it
Finally i got it!
I had finally proven myself to be a gold medalist
I can do it, and i did:)

Especially with the training regime that we went thru
its hard to think y u can't get gold
the only thing is not pushing urself hard enough

Well my knees n quats hav been feeling a bit pain since last wk
But hu cares, juz heck n run ur hearts out
Was limping when i finished my 2.4
timing? 9.29, personal best :p

But one thing i'm proud of is sbj
Never hav i jumped 234 before
Mayb it was a stroke of luck
a burst of energy
or juz by my pure motivation
i got it

Everytime its so near yet so far
Always missed gold by so close
but not now anymore
I made it!
HaPpY!
Mayb got early bookout next time?

2008-04-27T00:35:00.004+08:00

"We are officer cadets of ocs
To inspire us onwards as officers-to-be
We now state with reverance and respect
The officer's creed.

I'm an officer of the singapore armed forces
My duty is to lead, to excel, and to overcome
I lead my men by example.
I answer for their training, morale, and discipline
I mus excel in everything i do
I serve with pride, honour and integrity
I'll overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination
I dedicate my LIFE to Singapore!"

Home never felt so sweet before...

Came back for 小黄城 yesterday
Its been a while since i went back to school
And really envy life as a student
Seeing all the crap and the fools our juniors did
kinda remind me of the days when i was like them
no worries no nothing
no army no regimentation
so carefree and relaxed
I should have treasure more of my time here, really

yay next week got labour day
1 day off
It might be short, but every second of life as a cilivian is precious!

Feel very proud and happy yesterday after cleaning the whole toilet
It was GOOD, yes G~O~O~D!!
A great sense of accomplishment!
:)

2008-04-20T13:43:00.002+08:00

1 full month of ocs has juz gone
another 8 more months left to go...

Supposed to book out on fri night this wk
but ended coming out on sat afternoon due to our own incompetencies
but heck, at least we can come out right?
Although the time out is never enough
since when is book out time enough one
Even if u give me one whole wk of rest now
i wld still grumble on...

The pace of training here is really fast n tough
but then it can be a good thing
cos time seem to pass much faster
at least tt's wad i hope...
Jus get on n endure thru the remaining of the yr
and life wld be so much better frm then on

At least our platoon looks to be gelling now
the 2 man bunk system is really damn anti-social
how i wish i can go back to my 12 men falcon bunk
where we could juz tok cock n kill time

3 more wks before my torturous 12-day field camp starts
the last day of which falls on my bday
wonder how shag will i be then
Will i even rmb my bday?
It'll juz be any normal day ba

Hey its xiao huangcheng next sat!
Excited! Something to look forward to!
Something that will motivate me to endure thru yet another wk
Haven seen the huangcheng dudes n dudettes for a really long time
Esp wif ppl like yunzhou, ruixiong, karweng n leeheng starting their ns journey alr
wonder how much hav they changed...
Or rather how much hav i changed?

2008-04-13T08:41:00.006+08:00

I'M OUT!
For the 1st time in 3 weeks...
Civilian world feels like parade to me now
Indeed ocs is really different from bmt
Its juz like GP n KI...

I seriously doubt if i can the survive thru everything
Am i cut off to become an officer?
Esp wif strong regimentation n discipline
I doubt if i'll make it
The past 3 weeks have been emo

Every morn when the alarm clock rang
I wake up and ask myself
Y am i here?
Wad's so good about ocs?
Is it really worth it?

Maybe i'm tinking too much
but a cadet's life is really like shit
But u can't expect it to be any better wad
I knew ocs would be different from anything
But i dunno if i can take it
Cos i've never been like that before

Seeing my parents come n go during parent's visit
I held back my tears when they got up the bus
I learnt to treasure my family now really
Cos i didn't really care much about them last time
I learnt to appreciate n cherish quality time spent wif family n frens
They are really important to me now...
For once i admit i need pillars of support to help me get thru this period

Of course, there's always the easy way out
But since i've made the choice
why be a loser n backed out?

I'M AM AN OFFICER CADET!

9 months later at the commissioning parade
wait for me?

2008-03-23T16:37:00.001+08:00

Your Posting Order is listed below:

You are posted to OCS (ARMY WING).

Your vocation is OFFICER CADET (CBT).

Your are to report to: SAFTI Military Institute, Warrior's Hall.

Reporting Date/Time: 24/03/2008 at 0700 to 0800 hrs.

Person to report to:
AMPO

You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.

2008-03-09T11:20:00.002+08:00

黄城绝对最精彩...
黄城终于来了，但没有参与的感觉总是怪怪的
这几天到 VT 混，总是回想起总总回忆
好的，坏的，高兴的，失落的，愉快的，伤心的
踏进 VT 的那一刹那，脑海中勾起的画面连绵不断
VT 和黄城总是让我感触良多。。。

不想再对公演给予任何评价
只想好好欣赏演出的每一刻
尤其是谢幕
总是让人想起好多好多，不知道该说什么？
在德光岛的这段日子中，
也许黄城是唯一让我向往的目标和动力

永远不会忘记在黄城的日子
永远爱着黄城
黄城绝对最精彩...

Okay shld i blog about my A lvl results now?
Quite satisfied wif everything except my dear achilles heel, GP!!
Wad the hell, i'm sure get a bloody D??
Looks like my options are quite open now
Thinking abt uni, making decisions n deciding ur future really suck
and its gonna knock me out
and there seems like so many research to do
For now, i seriously dunno wad i'll end up in 5 yrs time
confused...

Here's the breakdown of my results, Good enough? i dunno

GP : D
Okay nothing to say, totally stunned! at least its my best ever GP grade? Sry augy, i've let u down, i've disappoint u, mayb i chose the wrong essay? Maybe my AQ ended up a 0? juz mayb..1 frigging subject tt ruin my entire cert, it happened during o's, and it happened yet again...To hell with it!

Maths : A
Not bad, its the only subject i'm fully confident of my A, despite not handing up my tutorials, at least i can still prove myself at the highest level. In fact its my first A since erm...o lvls...And all those stupid careless mistakes, fortunately, didn't cost me my A...heng sia

Physics : A
Wow this one is really worth mentioning, i've been anti-phy since j1 and struggled through it, unable to understand anything until the last moment, an A is really a confidence booster. i still rmb some of the questions were really damn screwed up, another stroke of luck?

Economics : A
WOOHOO~~~!!! This is my most precious A! Nvr in my wildest dreams did i expect an A for econs, esp how screwed up the paper was. I totally wrote crap for all the essays! Oh well, my crap still got me an A, so i'm an A crapper? This has got to be the highlight of my results

CLL : B
Arghh...thought i might have a chance for A since i've been crapping and getting decent grades throughout the last 2 yrs. Well, a B isn't tt bad after all, since most of the markers dun like hwachong...haiz, at least we fare better than our seniors?

Not bad isn't it? After how much i screwed myself in jc, dun really expect anything close to my o lvl cert. But these grades "supposedly" should be good enough for me to enter a good course in a local uni, yea nus ntu smu, bring it on~~! Could i've worked juz a bit harder? Definitely, but then these r my results, so juz move on with life lah!

Confirm not going overseas cos i wanna spend more time at home with my family and frens, except my situation now, which is not much different from being overseas, and i'll have lesser and lesser time if i get into command school...

2008-02-23T10:38:00.002+08:00

Its been ages since i last blogged
Confined over last wkend cos of the damn field camp!
Now out after 2 wks, including 6 days out in the jungle
Feels great isn't it?
Its only like the 4th time i book out
Since the start of my vacation in tekong...
And i really cherish every moment of it
Being a civilian is really GREAT!

Field camp makes me think about lots of stuff
To noe your limits and to surpass them
To understand tt i'm not as good as i tink i'm
To be grateful of everything n every1 ard u
And to treasure them
A difficult but fulfilling experience
at least i survived thru it
I'm a man

Really missed the world outside
3 wks left in tekong
After that the future will be unsure
A's lvls?
try not to tink of it
I'll accept any result

(This is not an emo post, i'm supposed to write an essay entitled "field camp reflections")

Together we r falcon coy
Together we r platoon 4
Together we r marching on
Together we'll sing this song

We r we r platoon 4
2 years serve our country
Dun care hu's our enemy
Beware, we r platoon 4 platoon 4...

(quite like this song taught by our t j sir, the tune is reall emo)

2008-01-27T16:59:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK ALIVE~~!

n i'll be back in tekong in 3 hrs time...

booking out sure feels good

being a civilian is really cool

but time flies when u are out...

2008-01-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

This is it!
Less than 20 hours from now
I'll be leaving the island
EMO NO MORE!

I'm going to face it
I'll go in a happy man
I'M GONNA TAKE IT LIKE A MAN!

And rest assured
I'll be BACK!

Its true that i'll miss everyone here
But this opens a new chapter of my life
And i'm lookig forward to it!

TEKONG BRING IT ON MAN~~~~

2008-01-03T11:11:00.000+08:00

EMO!
Yes, emo is the word
Yesterday was 2nd jan,
SCHOOL REOPENS!
I'm supposed to wake up at 63oam, wash up, brush, breakfast, change and go to sch
But here i am, waking up at 630am, the same time as my bro
(who's going aj this time as a j1)
And realised that, hey, i've no school!
And i went back to sleep again...

Went army market wif sherman yesterday to buy some stuff in preparation for next fri
walked around j8 when we came back in the afternoon
and guess wad?
EMO again!
Everyone in sch uniform!
But we've no school!
WE ARE NOT STUDENTS ANYMORE!!
Arghhhh!!!

Suddenly j8 look all too familiar
The sight where students from all kinds of schools gather here
its like the old days again...
And wad the hell?
WE ARE NOT PART OF THEM!!
And i also remember how last time we came to j8 after school
juz to look at gals...

So...
no taking of 74 every morning
(i really missed meeting sherman, qq, gabriel, pui kit on the bus)
no walking to school anymore (back in chs days)
no more school uniform!
no more school life!

And wtf? tekong coming in 8 days!!
Next fri...
I've 8 days more to enjoy life
And to say goodbye to everyone...
I'll be back a changed man
A different zi jia, a different vincent
better or worse, i dunno
But the most impt thing is...
I'LL COME BACK

Adult fares are driving me crazy
A trip frm my hse to kap actually cost 1.19!
Now i realised how screwed up smrt n sbs are
Damn you sbs and smrt!
I wan to be a student again!

Went night cycling wif kezhong yesterday
Not many chances left liao
Cycled to nyjc, wif the gate opened
No security guard
So decided to go in and explore the area
And oh my, there was absolutely no soul there!
Almost all lights were on
A bit scary sia...

Then we went rj
This time got security guard, so cannot go in
Looks like ny guards all pon duty

Next we go toa payoh
Went to some play ground at the central area
And played the swing!
Since when will we get to play like that again?

I know emo is bad for health
but reality forced me to...

2007-12-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

You entered: Lim Zi Jia Vincent

There are 15 letters in your name.
Those 15 letters total to 77
There are 6 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 5

The characteristics of #5 are: Expansiveness, visionary, adventure, the constructive use of freedom.

The expression or destiny for #5:
The number 5 Expression endows with the wonderful characteristic of multi-talents and versatility. You can do so many things well. The tone of the number 5 is constructive freedom, and in your drive to attain this freedom, you will likely be the master of adaptability and change. You are good at presenting ideas and knowing how to approach people to get what you want. Naturally, this gives you an edge in any sort of selling game and spells easy success when it comes to working with people in most jobs. Your popularity may lead you toward some form of entertainment or amusement. Whatever you do, you are clever, analytical, and a very quick thinker.

If there is too much of the 5 energy in your makeup, you may express some the negative attitudes of the number. Your restless and impatient attitude may keep you from staying with any project for too long. Sometimes you can be rather erratic and scatter yourself and your energies. You have a hard time keeping regular office hours and maintaining any sort of a routine. You tend to react strongly if you sense that your freedom of speech or action is being impaired or restricted in any way. As clever as you are, you may have a tendency to make the same mistakes over and over again because much of your response is glib reaction rather that thoughtful application. You are in a continuous state of flux brought by constantly changing interests.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6

A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.

The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.

If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

interesting? i tink its pure crap man
try this : http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

2007-12-24T11:04:00.000+08:00

Its this time of the year again
Yes xmas! and also the march approaching the end of the year.
Normally we would be dreading the start of the new year
Which means the end of holidays and start of school again
But its different this year...

For the 1st time in 12 years
I dun hav to worry abt school at this point in time
NS? Nah i'm looking forward to it:)
esp after so many stories i heard frm the people inside
JY called me a couple of days ago during his free time
toking abt the situation and his bunk mates
seriously lots of interesting stories to be heard
like there's PHD in bryan's platoon
PHD=poly halfway dropout

Its fun to look at people wif less hair on their head
Some of them juz dun look like their usual self
Haha next yr it'll be my turn
So a good and stylish cap is necessary!

My family dun give a damn about xmas
So usually spend it wif frens
Meeting rara and gang later
orchard's gonna be damn bloody crowded tonight...

Have been wandering around aimlessly these few days
well, except the usual training to prepare for ns
Mayb i should step up my training...
Suddenly found myself cycling quite often these days
thanks to zhonghao's new bike
After the crazy night cycling during huangcheng chalet
i realised that no place is impossible to reach!

阳光宅男 词:方文山曲:周杰伦

钥匙挂腰带皮夹插后面口袋
黑框的眼镜有几千度来海边穿西装裤
他不在乎我却想哭
有点无助他的样子像刚出土的文物

他烤肉竟然会自带水壶
写信时用浆糊
走起路一不注意就撞树
我不想输就算辛苦
我也要等我也不能
让你再走寻常路

我决定插手你的人生
当你的时尚顾问
别说你不能

让我们乘着阳光
海上冲浪吸引她目光
不要怕露出胸膛
流一点汗你成了型男

让我们乘着阳光
看着远方别当路人甲
让美女缺氧
靠在你肩膀
我微笑在你旁边撑伞

喔对了对女生用心疼
约会要等讲笑话不能闷
别太冷像我一样就刚好
对爱的人接吻要深
拥抱要真
来电显示给个甜蜜的昵称

穿着要个性
这只是刚刚入门
接下来你还要会弹琴会写歌会双截棍
头脑清楚不能迷糊
我要将你彻底改造
基因重组大变身

2007-12-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

More good souls gone today
Yea, went to send off rara yip kinwai @ pasir ris bus interchange wif kezhong this morning
Rarely woke up so early
The whole setting really makes me feel emo
Its like when u see everyone's faces
They look as if something terrible is gonna happen
Or as if they might nvr come back
I guess it might be better if no one went to send me off...

And the buses really look terrible
As if we were being sent to a place of no return

rara was really super emo when we see him
he's been emo-ing these few days...
A mad man, a good fren, GoNe...
A big hug at the bus entrance
All good things come to an end
This is it~!
he muz be bald by now

Goodbye rara, we'll miss you
(Dun worry, nothing will happen to you)

Also saw ks but no kangli the poodle
although both of them are on the same day
Had a 4-11 gathering 2 days ago
To take a last look at my brothers...
And i realised need to tuck in shirt on tt day
Yucks!
My day will come soon enough

最长的电影 词:周杰伦曲:周杰伦

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着

冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你
慢慢忘记你

朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的
圈起了谁改变

如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得

记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

2007-12-07T00:15:00.000+08:00

A memorable prom
Something i won't forget...
Although i'm seriously not used to formal wear...

Drank beer wif yeo, bryan, puikit on wed at amk kopitiam
Bryan's last day on the island lol
The first casualty of tekong...
Guess it muz be an emo day for him

So life feels weird without bryan from now on
And more will be leaving soon
next week, more will be gone...rara xings jy...
Its seems a little sad
that all those people around you
Are leaving 1 by 1
Leaving u all alone...

彩虹曲:周杰伦词:周杰伦

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

2007-12-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

2 days after huangcheng chalet, i find myself feeling a little weird

Mayb i've found myself gotten used to life in halton bungalow D already, although its not really a good place, not to mention the record amount of ants i've seen, and the peculiar location juz beside old changi hospital...no ghostly encounters of course, although i would love to explore the area...

Juz realised this is my 200th post!! song bo

Well, the turnout wasn't that great, as compared to last year, when almost everyone came. Lots of familiar faces weren't here, which was quite sad. I guess it might be cos of other plans like mugging for SATs...

Kinda understand xinyu's concern (RARE sia!! one of the few moments i agree with her) that if we dun pull the group back together in these kind of gatherings, it can be quite difficult to pull them back in the future again, especially when everyone gets separated with their own committments and pursuing their dreams...or even leaving overseas. I mean chalet is one of the few occasions when everyone can be come together and 'tok cock', it might juz be difficult to see each other again. But then well, to be frank, maybe if xinyu joins us for the whole chalet and dao her stupid japan trip, mayb more people might turn up...haha! 总监要以身作则嘛!

I guess the most funny thing was the moment where xinyu tried to prevent shengshi from leaving on the 2nd night due to some lame excuses. Of course everyone dun wan him to leave, and the chaos lasted for like an hour or so, with xinyu trying all her might and everything she could blurt out to convince shengshi to stay for the last night together (I guess she muz hav missed him...) She even 跪下来 in front of him to beg him to stay, wow that's news sia! All of us were seriously amused by everything lah, esp shengshi's tramautised looks and yells of "desiring to be freed from torture" like erm..."云舟，救我!!!" Even tried to block his way and came up with all sorts of reasons trying to convince him to stay, well it juz gets out of hand when shengshi tries to jump down from the stairs...

He left anyway, and came back the next day, but i guess it was the most exciting and interesting thing ever happened during those 3 days, and seriously, some things can only happen with xinyu around (positive and negative inclusive lah)

But then look on the bright side, we had lots of fun during the chalet (especially the night cycling part), and with enough effort, its still possible to bring everyone back and together again, even if it means swimming back from tekong...oops! Feelings dun fade that easily, do they?

Was made to look like a freako idiot carrying bags on thrash while heading for the chalet on the first day. A mahjong set and 20 cup noodles, yea everyone was looking at me. I was late but had to wait quite some time for some more people...I've slept quite a lot the previous day (by my standards), so should be able to last the whole chalet with minimum sleep. Seriously, the only time i feel like sleeping was when everyone around was so sian, tired-looking and sleepy, then you will have no choice but to sleep, if not, i could still last through...

Well then, like all your typical chalet, there your typical chalet games and stuff, like mahjong, cards, movies and so on...A bit boring as time sets in, finally left for changi village for dinner and bike renting in the evening. Came back, did some warm-up cycling with shengshi, yunzhou and yihan, before we set out for the craziest biking trip ever.

Speaking about the cycling trip, i juz can't find any word to describe it, Amazing? Awesome? or juz pure madness? I've never ever cycled for so long before. There were 7 of us, junjie, yihan, yuyin, yunzhou, leeheng, wenen, we left at 1030pm, guess wad time we came back? 6am, wow, juz 1 word i can tink of now, COOL~~!! A bunch of adventure-seeking freaks? But it was really one of the best things i'm looking forward, although there's temporary phobia of the bike...No one could be as crazy as us...

somewhere in kallang?

We went through tampines to east coast first, then head for suntec city and VT. Weird time to recee VT though, and then we chiong north, trying to come to my house, but gave up soon enough, head to orchard and finally chiong back to chalet. I've a feeling that we took twice the time back, maybe because of the fatigue, and the fact that it was really very painful (there, u noe), especially at breaks and bumps, totally unbearable. But given another chance, i would still do it, lol!

The journey back was a mental and physical struggle, especially along the mrt track, which seems never ending, i still can't believe we made it! Could have went back sooner if we spend lesser time resting and less traffic lights to deal with. I was so tired that i was afraid that i might sleep on the bike halfway and...yea

somewhere in VT around 2am?

and there u've, east coast to orchard, by bike

When we came back it was like, wow!! phew...pain and suanness all over. Can't walk, no energy to do anything, can't lift up my butt...zzz, most of the others were sleeping already...Shengshi yunzhou yihan did some comedy singing on isaac's kbox machine, which i couldn't stop laughing...

Rot around for a while before i finally couldn't take it and went up to sleep at around 11.30pm. It was the only time i slept on a bed there, but well, some chairs n cushion could suit me fine. Didn't really sleep a lot, around 3+ hours or so, before i woke up and found out to my horror that there were only 4 people at the chalet, yihan, junjie, shengshi...where has everyone disappeared to? nothing to do then, went out walk walk a while, come back and sleep again...

Finally its time for bbq, at first it was raining, which might really destroy out bbq plans, but then it stopped and we started late. Didn't really ate a lot, spend most of my time cooking and worrying abt the fire instead. I can't think of anything to do besides helping to cook...pardon me for my bad cooking guys, tried my best liao, but i guess it was quite okay ba...

After that, it was the xinyu-shengshi affair lol, and life soon got boring when i tried to finish the cards and autographs given by various peeps, tried not to niao too much since we not seeing each other often liao...No culture of writing autographs at cathigh, esp for someone from a 10-year guys sch, so it came as something fresh to me...

Something that strikes me was that xinyu could really sustain her high-ness for whatever length of time, she can never get low you noe, and got dragged to play a never-ending uno game...It was only 4am or so on the 2nd night when most people were asleep, with me and yihan trying to entertain ourselves with isaac's laptop, played my first dota game in 1/2 a year, and xinyu went to sleep soon after. I tink i was the only one awake in the hse when yunzhou federick and karweng went cycling again while isaac was away watching liverpool porto...

Yet another night without any sleep, it was when all the others wake that i found myself really in screen-saver mode, and tried to sleep on a couch for erm, 20mins? Heck lah, go home then sleep lah...

It was finally around 11 when we left the chalet and head for changi village to have wad i call lunch, kinda skipped breakfast for that day...shengshi came again to check out, and after a night's sleep at his cozy home, he's still sleeping again...he muz have slept more than any of us.

Stayed for quite a while in changi village, talking lots of crap again, before being forced to go home. Didn't really wan to go home so early, cos it'll be damn sian at home nothing to do, so helped isaac carry his stuff home to yishun. Rot there for a while messing up his laptop. It was his aunt's home with 2 rooms nia, one of the 3 homes he had, with the others at boon lay and johor.

Then suddenly yunzhou called to tell me that he has reached home, through walking from tampines bus interchange...reached at around 240pm, step by step, wad the? i'm really impressed...The last to reach home was perhaps me, no sustainable form of entertainment at isaac's hse make me left and reach my home at 5pm. Was really tired and yawning all the way, but somehow juz couldn't sleep at all...

So that kinda sums up what i did at the chalet...i guess it could have been better though...Its back to my boring home again. I'm seriously bored liao, no plans no nothing for much of december, any plans of what to do during my last days before 11 jan? Give me some ideas leh, thanks!

青花瓷　　　　　　　　 词:方文山曲:周杰伦 (wah si bei chim sia)

素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡
瓶身描绘的牡丹一如你初妆
冉冉檀香透过窗心事我了然
宣纸上走笔至此搁一半　

釉色渲染仕女图韵味被私藏
而你嫣然的一笑如含苞待放
你的美一缕飘散去到我去不了的地方　　

天青色等烟雨而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里
在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸
就当我为遇见你伏笔　　　　

天青色等烟雨而我在等你　　　
月色被打捞起晕开了结局　　　　
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意　　　

色白花青的锦鲤跃然於碗底
临摹宋体落款时却惦记著你
你隐藏在窑烧里千年的秘密
极细腻犹如绣花针落地　　　　

帘外芭蕉惹骤雨门环惹铜绿　　　　
而我路过那江南小镇惹了你　　　　
在泼墨山水画里你从墨色深处被隐去　　

天青色等烟雨而我在等你　　　　
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里　　　　
在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸　　　　
就当我为遇见你伏笔　　　　　　　　

天青色等烟雨而我在等你　　　　
月色被打捞起晕开了结局　　　　
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意

2007-11-21T15:43:00.001+08:00

YAY!! ITS FINALLY OVER!!

COOL! FEELS GOOD MAN!!

HAVOC TIME~~!! CRAZY!!!

MUHAHAHAHAH!!

wad can i say now?

Getting crazy is juz a part of ending exams, but i still think the feeling that o lvls has ended last time was much more mad than now, mayb its becos we were in an all guys sch, and well, there isn't really things that u can't do or dun feel like doing, cos in chs, u could do ANYTHING!!

oh yea, hav been relieved that all these has finally ended. Pls lah, 6 days of preparation juz for a phy mcq paper, 老天要耍我是不是? Now, 2 years of completely no mugging!! For once i dun hav to think about going to sch on the 2nd of jan next year!

Not that i really have much time left to waste anyway. Guess i'll juz be wasting my time away enjoying my last moments in this world (on the main island) 1 and a half months isn't really long，juz dun wanna go to tekong with any 牵挂 or wad, so for now, its ENJOY LIFE ALL YOU WAN!!

plans after exams? dun ask me now...haha

oh i've some new and updated comments on jay chou's new album, but lazy to post now haha. Realised that listening to the album gradually gives you a different kind of feeling, and it juz keeps on changing...

AQ: ya thnx arh anqing, long time no see le! glad that u love jay chou's song:) those 2 were my favourites! i wld love to go his concert and i have frens with free ticx inviting me to go, but i CAN'T cos i won't be on the island...sad, really sad...haiz

我不配 曲：周杰伦词：方文山

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

2007-11-10T11:11:00.000+08:00

Take a break from mugging guys!

Let's listen to some 周杰伦!

Yea juz bought his new album last tue, could have gotten it earlier if not for some shipping and delay. It was a really good album i should say, definitely worth everything, although my first impressions were not really as impressive, thought his standards drop a bit le...But after listening to it a few times and "feeling" it, his standards are still there, in fact, it may be even better!

The combination of 方文山's lyrics and 周杰伦's music is still the most trusted, guaranteed, and simply the BeST! His lyrics had been what i'm looking forward to as well. Overall i think the feel is still there, and there were quite a few songs with those typical jay chou kind of tune and feeling. Was hugely surprised and impressed by how he use the tune from 不能说的秘密 to compose a new song, like 蒲公英的约定 and 彩虹, which brought memories from the movie and also added a new dimension to it.

And the mv's really coool!! I guarantee you, muz go watch~!!

Nowadays jay chou has become so much a part of my life, that i start my day with it, and end with it as well! lol certainly a good source of motivation for mugging and also to relax when you are too sian...MuG and ReWarD yourself with 周杰伦!

牛仔很忙--a very cute song i must say, but it was quite short, and the "不用麻烦了" got story behind it. It was when Jay was filming 不能说的秘密, and when the crew wanted to help the female lead 桂轮美 with things, she kept on saying 不用麻烦了, so jay put it inside. Heard that when he asked his fren 黄俊郎 to write the lyrics, he specified that these 5 words muz stay no matter wad, lol! For your info, 黄俊郎 is that rugby guy in the movie. Yea didn't know until guohui told me, which make me lol!?!

彩虹--An adaptation from the original sound track "first kiss" from the movie, but feels different, mayb becos this track didn't leave a huge impression in me from the movie. One line interests me a lot "也许时间是一种解药，也是我现在正服下的毒药" And the lyrics written by jay as well.

青花瓷--A typical piece of 中国风 as well! Really feels how 方文山 can be a 诗人 in a sense. It those kind like 菊花台，发如雪，东风破, which will really make you replay and replay again. 感染力超强!

阳光宅男--Your typical pop song ba, yes mayb a bit too typical. Don't really stand out from the other songs leh

蒲公英的约定--Oh my, when i heard the opening, it was like tears started to drip liao...nah joking but the opening was exactly the same as one of the most memorable and touching ost tracks from the movie. i was like wad the hell and lol all the way when i heard this! This has got to be one of the best songs in the album man! I was seriously hoping he might turn some of the touching ost tracks into a full song,a and he actually did it! Go Go Go listen~!!

无双--Another all too typical rap, sounds like i heard it many many times before. His rap songs are not really impressive this time...

我不配--cool, juz cool, the flow of the music was juz perfect. Brought some glimpses of 园游会 though, very 耐听, Good Job! Another 不听可惜, hugely recommendable!

扯--yucks, the opening convo was getting much lamer this time compared to 红模仿, and the whole song was like zzz...

甜甜的--First thing that came to my mind when i saw the title was 麦芽糖，and true, when i heard the tune, it only confirms that its really 麦芽糖 style.

最长的电影--A pretty difficult song to sing ba, he tries all the high pitches again, but sounds damn gek at times, but i think not still not as gek as 搁浅 or 黑色幽默

蒲公英的约定 词:方文山曲:周杰伦

小学篱芭旁的蒲公英
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音
多少年后也还是很好听

将愿望折纸飞机寄成信
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币
却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定
那样清晰打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性

在走廊上罚站打手心
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很紧
很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定
那样清晰打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性

一起长大的约定
那样真心与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清
你是友情还是错过的爱情

2007-10-29T11:02:00.001+08:00

It all starts here, isn't it?

Feels like the o levels again, isn't it?

Yes, and we'll need all the luck in the world!

Am i ready? Sure hope i'm...

Less than 22 days to the grand finale!

Come on, let's OWN everything!

Starting with cll paper 1 later...

Confidence is certainly not lacking now

Nothing fazes me now

The end is near...

2007-10-13T20:05:00.000+08:00

My ToY...

Wad? Is this a coincidence or sbs conspiracy?

3, yea its THREE 74s coming at once at around evening time yesterday, while me and yunzhou were laming by walking to the nj bus stop to take our bus. Wah, never give me face is it?

Oh and the bday bash for october babies was COOL!
certainly a great way to end our j2 days!
Especially the 2nd part "surprise within a surprise"
When we totally terrorize xinyu
Yea, a bit got shocked by the surprise she planned...
Haha, but it was real fun i guess!
These moments will never be forgotten
Glad that there are ppl who will unite us
This group of ppl will always be around throughout my life
And i did my part!
So happy bday to shengshi, isaac, wen en, kiamian, ming2, peishan, zhaorui, xinyu:)

And the way when all of us were late for audi
A huge group of huangcheng ren stroll inside
Damn seh leh~!

And open hse really makes me feel i wan to be a j1 again...
Wanted to mug in sch
But ended up walking around doing nothing
Not to mention ponning useless cll lecture
Went for the juniors intro to chi soc thingy at lt1
A bit 'entertaining' arh, with xinyu around...
And oh my, lt all flooded with st nicks
Not to mention their high-pitched screams...arghhh
And my chs juniors damn rofl
come at 430 after open hse ended...
Then asked me to bring them around...zzzzzz

augy says my results looks 'promising'
wonder how true is that?

Grad day is pure BORING~~!!

No feeling of graduation...
ended up playing with the bear instead
doing all kinds of crap with it...
Sneaked out during the presentation of bears
And 华初的歌 has no feeling
feels weird and different from huangcheng of course
So, did i juz graduated?
Since i've graduated, decided to give myself a 'break' on wed and thur from sch!
Its a break, not pon
But going to sch also not much use lah
So i'm only back to sch yesterday after a 2-day absence

After so many days of ranting with xings and leech
"where is my love letter from saf??"
It finally came on thur!
And guess wad?
I'll be going on 'vacation' on 11 jan 930am tekong BMTC sch 1
And have to reach pasir ris bus interchange by 830am!?!?
wad the hell, so early for wad? got some of my frens report at 2pm lah

dunno if this is good or bad
Have been waiting for the letter
but somehow feel a bit emo after receiving it...
only less than 3 months of freedom left
Take out A lvls, and its effectively less than 2 months
时间不多了~~
There are some things i have to do before going tekong...

2007-10-07T11:23:00.000+08:00

Let's MUG!!

2007-09-30T10:55:00.000+08:00

Dunno if this is good news or bad news
Kinda knew all my results liao...
No Us (yay! this is really really GOOD news, first time this year)
No S
No As (hmm, bad news?)
No Bs
Final Score : CCDDE

Here's the breakdown:

GP : D
Quite contented with this grade, although the marks were a bit moderated arh...At least i knew i can write a decent essay (Uncle kuan yew qn), which was one of the highest i got in jc. For the first time this year, there was a 'good' for my intro, and the no. of red marks was surprisingly little (augy not marking wad, of course dun waste ink lah). And i got the highest for AQ in my entire jc life, which was erm...3 marks (eh not bad for me liao...) Augy rox man!

Maths : C
Actually i thought i could have gotten a better grade if not for those stupid careless mistakes. But nvm, its already a 20+ mark improvement from bt2 and never be too greedy. Did for better for paper 2 which i thought was the more difficult paper. But at last, tink i've been gaining confidence in doing maths liao, juz zham qns!

Physics : E
Another subject which i thought i could have done better. Paper was quite okay...Actually we will only get back our papers this week, but mr chua pops up randomly last tue to show us our results and reminded us to do our tys. Indeed, its possible to get A if i chiong finish that book...Not bad liao considered that its a 10 mark improvement from last time, first time i passed this year, and i'll get better!

Econs : D
One of the 2 subjects which i deproved. Juz hit D though, it was really close, phew. Thought that i might get better cos study much more for prelims then any econs exam this year. First time we did 3 essays in 2.25 hrs. Drq saved me in the end, although i was conned into believing that qn 2 was really a pri sch compre qn...And mrs lee was actually smiling at me, which was surprising cos i was usually in my own world for most of her lessons...

CLL : C
okay last subject, and the subject which i dun really wanna talk about. This is the first time that i actually mugged for cll, and guess wad? i deproved from a B...Wad's the meaning of this? Telling me not to study is it? Actually i put it as my last priority of mugging for prelims, and only studied it when i'm more or less done with the other subjects, when i've the spare time.
The 'incredible' thing was, there was no difference in my paper 2 marks from last time, aka the literature mugging section, which means that last time i hun by crapping, same marks. Now i got mug, also same marks. Wad lau, got mug or crap also same marks, a bit sad lah. Then might as well save energy and time dun mug liao! My crapping skills are still reliable though, thought that if i combine it with a bit of decent content, might be better, but guess i was wrong.
So the main reason for my deprovement was the drop in paper 1, which was the no-need-to-mug section, and traditionally the source which i relied to get my marks...

sigh...
Only good thing i can think of its no Us to speak of
But dun really have a good feeling about my grades
Or maybe its the best that i could possibly hope for
Be happy lah, at least u didn't fail leh 知足常乐~~!
And i realised all my scores were within a 10 mark range...
The leap to A lvls will sure be a tough fight

Post-prelim time-table is crap, some days very long, some very short
some sessions are pon-nable...
waste time, rather mug myself lah

The last time i got A was O lvls (yea a bit flooded with As, haha)
The next time i get A? A lvls?
When is it my turn to 'shine'?

Operation chiong liao~~!

And i love the tagline from mr chua:
It is now or never. No more excuses. No fear. No complacency. Just work your ass off.

2007-09-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

YAY ITS OVER!! ITS ALL OVER!!

Dun worry lah i won't become crazy...

(oh yea right, i'm sure its all over...nothing's changed dude, u still have the big thing coming up!)

Can i be a little more optimistic?

Somehow i'm already in post-prelim mood yesterday (although i end today)
Who cares about physics mcq?
Juz flip a coin or roll a dice enough liao...
If u screw up your paper 2 and 3, then there's limited that mcq can do
Sian...why can't they have physics paper 1 and 2 together?
Then i can start relaxing officially yesterday

I guess my prelims were quite okay ba...
At least better than last time
First time i studied seriously ever since the o levels...
okay i shouldn't remind myself about it...

So its "a bit" of slacking for now (yes a bit only...i try)
While the others who haven't ended point their middle fingers at me...
And i'll be back having fun with my tys and notes some time later
(I guess it won't be long...)

2007-09-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

MAF MAF MAF!!

Yea decided to go for maf (mid-autumn fest) ytd instead of watching man u vs everton, lol!
No full moon though, its only the start of 8th lunar month
And the real maf is like around 10 days later?

Well, actually it feels quite sian
Not many people there, especially the huangcheng gang, sigh...
And the crowd looks smaller than last year also.
Saw our dear lights senior eugene, who was posted to the air force
Junyi was back at tekong to train new recruits,
so he wasn't here, so sad...

At least the juniors did something 'fun'
Like throw water bomb at jin hao?
Or even the "blow candles until you die" thingy...
Aiya, actually my point of going is to support them lah
Still remebered what we did last year
All the lame stuff and getting rid of hui suo stuffed toys,
by giving them out as prizes....hahaz

But then i seem to have no feeling for maf this year
Maybe next year then i'll have some feeling ba...
Whether i'll be here next year is still a big "??"

And please dun ask me anything abt prelims...rofl

2007-09-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

My life sux
I've no life

2007-09-02T21:28:00.001+08:00

4-11 band of brothers reunited!

Yea its been a long time since we met up!
Went fish n co. and seafood platter really rox!
But service charge and GST really killed us...
And the bill totalled to like around 270 bucks?

Well, guess most of us still haven't changed much
Had great fun with these guys
The old jokes and crap were still there
Hope we'll have the chance to meet up again soon:)
Maybe in tekong? LOL!

And the way toon plays daytona is COOL!!

Went back chs for teacher's day as usual
Maybe i'll have a lesser chance to come back from next year
As the sch becomes more and more unfamiliar
Visit your teachers while they are still here!

The teachers are still the same
They say this batch of sec 4s are worrying (my bro's in, lol)
Come on, i'm not surprised
The one and only 'tablet' batch
The plan to introduce tablet pcs to aid their education really failed
And as expected, they went up playing games
And it really takes a great deal of effort to stay away from that and mug

老蔡 was giving me tips on cll, especially 雪山飞狐!
And asking me about my lep 'adventure' (notice the inverted commas)
Since i'm like the only one to take lep from my batch?
But the good thing is, his sense of humour is still there:)

Also saw mr fernandez and mr heng and lin dan wen
It was fun crapping with them
And we were asking when is mr fernandez's baby coming?
since he juz got married last year
And i seeked help for gp, haha!
"Confidence" "Focus" says mr heng

Oh yea, there's still mrs alice long
Who was responsible for both my A1s in E maths and A maths
Everytime she sees me, she'll ask me why i never help my brother?
Since my bro was taught by her as well...
But she says he's putting in effort and improving now:)

Heard there's going to be an indoor sports hall coming up
Question is, where?
No space in the school liao...But guess wad?
They are going to build it over the track
Sounds cool, so the sports hall will be at the 2nd lvl, over the track
means when you are running 2.4
you'll run under a building, and sort of 'come out' again
But then, there's still the big problem, $$$
As hakboon says "The Lord will provide for us!"
zzz...wtf?

Oh our 4-11 tile painting done 2 years ago is still there!
Although it really needs some repainting (corroding like siao!)
Memories Memories...sigh...

Got killed by gp on thur, end of story

The mugging camp has already started

2007-08-26T11:50:00.000+08:00

The last unofficial school day
The last day of normal lessons as a class, lectures and tutorials
The last chance to pon...
Seems like everyone is blogging about it

Quoted from yunzhou "my days are numbered"
Seriously its definitely not the last day of school
We'll still be going back, still be seeing each other again
Its not the end of the world
But then, i juz had this weird feeling
that my days here are really coming to an end

Things will never be the same from now on
Things that you do everyday...those normal lessons and breaks
Will be juz memories
Instead of counting down of A lvls,
I guess i should really be counting down to the end of my life here
And to cherish the remaining days
College life always seems short and fast, but memorable

How many times will i take 74 to school from now on?
How many times will i wear the uniform again?
How many times will i rot in my class bench?
I guess it will feel different
And you can't see some people everyday
Arghh...i dread thinking about the last day

Suddenly i feel a little emo, for obvious reasons
Maybe the pressure to mug can divert my attention away
from the nostagia and all that

也许时间能冲淡一切
但我不想一切被冲淡
I'll miss my days here, everything!
Its only when you lose it, then you start to treasure it
Its always like that
but it'll be too late
Thanks everyone, for all the memories and fun!

天冷就回来 is COOL!
Everyone go watch!

2007-08-19T11:00:00.000+08:00

3 letters to describe geyao : LOL!
Did your guess it? Not being lame here...
Pretty much a zi high session, especially the first 2 rows...haha
Cos most of the audience were quite cold
So its up to us to stir up the atmosphere
And xinyu= 10 ppl strength of cheering (or perhaps more?)
Cheering like hell (maybe only us...), and so interactive with the emcee
It is really very LOL!

Yea and both my 灯光组长 pon the entire affair
Can't blame them cos they can't even enter the control room or touch the followspot
Devil haw has destroyed the whole event, for all i care
Shall not comment on the lighting design cos its not a huangcheng design!
Audience turnout wasn't bad
Consider that they only sold 20+ ticx prior to the start of the week
But the stage was quite empty
No set no nothing...
You can argue about simplicity but it juz doesn't feel right for me...

And after looking at this
kinda worry about the future chi soc events, especially huangcheng!!
They have to be more organised,
More committed, the attitude must be there!
You can study all you like after you stepped down...
Remember the days when we fail together?
They juz have to learn to manage things better, somehow
Technical stuff can be learnt, you muz hav the right attitude

Anyway, the songs were quite good this year
Better than last year!
And the guest performances were great too!
At least that's something to cheer about, since its geyao
Too bad the technical support weren't good enough...
And philip was like...ya very entertaining
The song was not bad de, but his voice juz doesn't fit into it
And the balloons were like...
throw also cannot reach the person...lol!
Maybe he tried too hard, but good effort!

And it was pretty much our own huangcheng gathering
Taking lots of photos and do ke-bah-bah cheer
And then even started to sing 华初的歌 (very random sia)
Somehow i juz love these moments
I guess these are the frens i would never forget

Will come back for all sorts of chi soc events if i can in the future
Really hope juniors will do us proud!

Oh its the last week of school before prelims!

2007-08-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

七月初一，鬼门关终于打开了。

祝大家好运

不要乱讲话，小心祸从口出

避免晚上一个人在街上走

时时刻刻留意你身后

小心不速之客

好该到楼下烧东西了

o.O

2007-08-09T11:18:00.000+08:00

Strongly recommended: 不能说的秘密

Everyone out there, go watch!

Its a really good show, i guarantee!

Don't miss it!

Went to catch it with rara, sherman, and bryan yesterday

Which was the first day of opening, lol! (very enthu arh)

cinema had like 5 times as many gals and guys?

and you could hear the gals screaming for jay chou...

As for the movie, the plot is really good, the acting is natural...

Everything is good:)

Its really full of surprises

1st part is the perfect lovers movie (romantic and cool)

2nd part was very very very anime!

Jay chou will be his own usual self

黄秋生 was hilarous

There was some sense of good 默契 between jay and 小雨

And the piano pieces were great! (from someone who noes nuts about piano)

Here are some great quotes:

能遇见你，已经很不可思议了 --雨

雨 : 你很喜欢用一只手弹琴噢?

伦 : 因为一只手弹琴，另外一只手就可以牵你啊~!

伦 : 什么治疗哮喘？

伦爸 : 跳舞

伦 : 屁啦

伦爸 : 吃大蒜就会放屁，跳舞就不会

(对着再操场边吃饭的伦)

这里是吃饭的地方吗？你会在餐厅里跑步吗？ --伦爸

"Follow the notes upon a journey, At first sight makes one’s destiny. When the voyage comes to an end, return lies hasty keys. "

Went to chs band concert at the esplanade on tue with toon, jon and sng. Our band is as good as ever, although there were some wrong notes which were quite obvious. I luv the pieces from les miserable. And it was the first time i sang the school song (with the band playing it of course) since 1 year ago. It was cool. Some oofer juz shouted "SCHOOL SONG" after the last note, and without any invitation, everyone from chs, past and present, juz stood up and waited for the band to play. I really felt the pride and spirit in singing the sch song. Nostalgia. And being chs, things eventually had to end with the sch cheer. Yay the great chs spirit is back!

2007-08-05T12:40:00.000+08:00

Jus finished watching the ending of code geass (there's going to be a season 2!)
guess it'll be the last anime series for me.
NO anime from now on until after A lvls!!

Went to catch ny film fest last fri with the huangcheng lads and some juniors
Yea, need a break from mugging...
"tried" to mug for 3 hours in lep room before that cos got nothing to do
lep room can be a good mugging place if there isn't too much ppl
Cos there's a tendency to end up crapping with ppl around...

Got the 白云岗 feeling after i stepped into LT4, hahaz
1 love story and 1 horror movie, not a bad combination
think the love story was quite gek
the horror movie was scary, "funny", and a bit complicated as well
Everyone juz went WILD!
especially the sudden unwelcomed appearance of the malay boy
Dun really understand the story well
But there were lots of jokes around
The malay boy exists jus to scare ppl
And most of the times everyone screamed even before he appeared...
Guess it was their screams which scared me out of my seat...

Jus realised that we've been talking a lot about army recently...
Some of my frens went for the commando or diver test last thur
Xingzhi was telling me what the gift shop uncle there told him
He say that the commando camp actually very small
When the commandos-to-be are sent there
Their parents see the place like very nice
But after the parents zao
The ppl there throw them into a bus
and send them elsewhere...
Wah tricky sia!

Next week is really a very good week to mug
Thanks to national day!
5 straight days of fun!
We love Singapura!
JY told me he's not going on mon and tue
Wad the, 1 wk holiday for him liao...

MUG vincent MUG!

2007-07-29T19:10:00.000+08:00

Yay!! I've finally finished 'mugging' harry potter and the deathly hallows!!
Okay, that was a bit slow...but i want to enjoy the book and keep the suspense for some days
Not like those ppl who finished it in 1 or 2 days, not as crazy though...haha
Hate those ppl and their spoilers who kept on talking abt the book when you haven finish reading...
And the names of harry's sons are really lame...
Would rate it as a good book though, the action and climax...
Looks like everyone's wrong about Snape.

Was reading the book on a random day when my dad came into the room and said "A level 有考 arh?" erps...

Why is everyone reminding me of the remaining days to a levels? It gets on my nerve sometimes, i know its less than 100 days, arghhh!

But then it also means that its closer and closer to the end of my life in hc.
Guess i'll treasure the remaining days here, really...
The end of school life rather.

2007-07-23T19:26:00.000+08:00

Put The Big Red Button on your site

kop this very lame thing from my fren's blog.
Only for those who are very very very bored...
See how long you can last, cos i dun tink i can hahaz!

2007-07-19T19:29:00.000+08:00

Time seems to be playing a joke on us i wonder. Approximately 40 more days to the prelims and around 100 days to the A levels. Time is really running short, and a lot of things are still undone. After looking at bt2 overall results, i seriously need a miracle for my A lvls, to improve at lighting pace maybe...Look at the state i'm in now, i don't know how bad can i get...

Here's a breakdown of all my bt2 results:

GP : S (nothing to say, augy the walking dictionary-cum-thesaurus is my tutor. Compre was just pathetic, 0 for AQ, wtf??)
Maths : U (Drop from B last time, but cannot be blamed cos of the killer paper, few survived...but then maths remains 1 of the subjects which i'm really confident of)
Physics : U (Improved by 100% from last time but still fail?? Wad the hell, is this a joke? 1 mark away from S, quite sad...and we were the worst class for physics)
Econs : C (pleasant surprise, but take into account that we only have to mug 1 topic for essay, which is super slack, i never really touch on econs during hols..)
CLL : B (I guess this remains 1 of my better subjects, maybe its due more to my crapping ability than my mugging skills...Remains the only subject which i had not failed since entering hc)

４个字 : 惨不忍睹!

Its exactly the same at bt1 results, no significant improvement at all! The more you mug, the more you fail? What's the point of mugging? I definitely mug more this time than bt1 (whether its enough or not is another thing), but still? Mug for wad? Really got use like that! Nothing's changed, everything's still the same! Or maybe this is my true capability after all.

What now? Am i really losing it? I think so

My confidence is shattered. In deep shit i'm. I know i'm in trouble. I know i've to put in more effort (All my tutors are telling me that...). But is that enough? Time is already not on my side...and so little energy in me...

No matter how many times i shout Fuck, its no use at all.

I need to rebuild my confidence fast and find motivation to chiong the remaining days...but how? How to build your confidence when you mug and find that its no use? Operation chiong was supposed to work i thought? I was wrong...

Am i tired? No i'm not. Its too early for me to be tired, there's still a long way to go, i can't be tired now.

I'm so lost right now, will i ever find my way?

Don't regret doing the things i did, and never will.

We should be doing lots of fun and exciting stuff at 18-years-old, instead of drowning yourself in piles and piles and piles of notes. My life seems like a joke too, even i myself am a joke...

I think i'm getting crazy.

2007-07-15T11:03:00.000+08:00

I knew this was going to happen! Yea, when i came home all wet and still dripping yesterday. A mass brawl and havoc. Yea if u guessed it right, i was thrown into the pool during class bbq at lan guan's house. In fact, i think daoteng and shengbin were the only guys who were completely dry yesterday. Why muz the bbq pit be so close to the pool? But then i was not the worst off, people wearing jeans like ernest and xulin were not let off either. Juz feel damn cold and heavy after a swim, haha! Why didn't any of the gals get wet arh? It started off with some splashing and playing, but developed to some struggling, throwing and diving...Luckily i had a ride on kenny's (aka june yang's bf) car back home, and fortunately, my parents were asleep by that time, lolz!

Oh yea, and we saw spencer toh last week and played bball with him, our canadian pri sch fren. Haven seen him for 6 years already and his face is still as guai lan as ever. And here's an interesting msn convo between sherman and spencer which sherman showed me.

spencer: want to play bball on weekend??
sherman: u play?
spencer: ya
spencer: kezhong said ur good
sherman: ok...

If u can't sense the "guai lan"ness inside here, its okay...

Was asked back to give the juniors lights lesson with isaac and meijin this coming fri and sat. I doubt if they can take it 2 days in a row. Have to take some time to prepare for the lesson too. Saw gabriel on fri discussing some stuff with kianyang, he's certainly a better teacher than me. Dun really mind helping them lah, especially when i've to return to VT next month to help out in chs drama production again. Time to crap with the technicians again!

And Order of the Phoenix really sux like hell. The shortest harry potter film, one of the thickest book, enough said? They cut off a lot of interesting parts, and i had a strong feeling the story wasn't developed to the fullest. The acting was not satisfying also. Disappointed! But then there is Deathly Hallows to look forward to, which is coming out this week!!

I've already decided that mugging is going to be part of my life from now on, whether i'll stick to that decision is another thing, but there's seriously a lot of things in life than juz mugging. I wan to leave hc with memories that will carry me throughout my life. My future? Do i even have a future? Saw this quote somewhere, couldn't remember but i tink its quite meaningful.

"Try the impossible, cause the possible don't seem to work."

Hmm the impossible?

2007-07-08T12:18:00.000+08:00

And that ends CHMA yesterday, aka Cat High Music Awards. Our all-time favourite mc Mark is finally back from tekong! With his charisma and egoistic humour, and also to the ability to stir up excitement among the crowd.

Went to cine kbox with the 4-11 dudes daniel, gh and xings in the morn yesterday, and seriously, k lunch food is like deterioriating like hell now, maybe we can consider going other places to sing next time. Its juz pathetic...We went to play some pool after that, and i had 1 of my worst off-day ever, a 10+ game losing streak that never ended....wth?? At times i got thrashed, at times i was so close to winning but freaked out at the last shot. I guess inconsistency is a big problem with my pool these days, sometimes i can hit 3 or 4 straight shots and even unbelieveable ones, sometimes i miss the no0b straight shots...sigh

okay now back to CHMA. Don't wan to pick too much in this after witnessing all the effort they took to prepare for this performance. Yes, it was definitely much better than your average 歌谣, 6 moving heads playing around was no joke. I went back on thur and fri for fun with zhongwei, leech and ashhao, and also help them in what i could, but it was more of a get-together for us all, ya the 2-9 oofers, and ashhao even said "Its only when i'm here then i can shout Fuck." Quite true...We took some interesting photos like the "Hail Edward(sch founder)!" and the "statue with the plastics bag on his head". Too back zw haven send me the photos, it'll be uploaded soon...

Not many familiar faces here. Edwin heng was the judge as usual. Saw szehuan and his gal, qin zheng, dacks, boonkiat, jon, sng, toon...And also samq, pok and jieying cos zw asked them to come, haha! The 2 cousins zw and ashhao were all over the place with their super-zai cameras and taking all kinds of shots. Although technical wise they were of high quality, vocal standards have gone down as expected.

When we came to the boring instrumental section, you can see a significant decrease in the hall crowd. As usual, we went out to crap and relax or even shout until the instrumental part was over, not to mention going on a tour around chs...The rock band part was not so "rocky" and the audience was never really 'high'. Yea, i had to mention that passion among the audience was really lacking this year...

And surprisingly some rv principal came and talk lots of crap, gosh he was damn long winded lah, then many of us tried to clap for him to end his speech...Why was it him and not hak boon who was up there giving out the prizes? that's funny, mayb hakboon might cause some crowd trouble if he ever went up on stage...Of course there were the usual "hakboon hakboon" chants from us, not to mention the "Fuck you hakboon!" which was quite loud and obvious...especially among the old boys...Oh well, this may be the last year of chma...maybe

Maths was the first paper i got back, and guess wad? i got 35!! Not very surprising cos zw and jy(aj) got 7, xinyu tyco 24, leech frm tj got 27. I guess all the maths papers all over s'pore jcs was equally tough as well this time. They are desperate to kill us. So i dun tink i'll be affected much by 35, who cares lah, only A lvls most important!! And i got 12/25 for econs essay, a 50% improvement from last time, so close to passing, but not really good cos we are only tested on ONE topic(market failure), yes you are not seeing things, its ONE topic only! Sigh...and we are going to have our prelims at the end of the term, time is running out...

2007-07-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: May 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.

You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.

People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.

Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know.

Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true

Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid

Your power color: Silver

Your power symbol: Square

Your power month: April

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2007-07-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

Mid yrs gone? not yet, still got that damn bloody physics paper 3 to bother with...shit man, wad is this crap? But if nothing goes wrong, i'm going to dao it! Yes, slacking has already started! Physics can go eat shit. I've a feeling that this block tests is no different from the last one, still as screwed up as before, aiya, heck care, only A lvls most important! Okay, now for a quick run of my expected grades for blocks:

GP--S (essay was okay, but compre was quite ownage, hopefully i won't drop to a U)
Maths--U (fucked up paper, dunno wad to say. I seriously dun even feel like reading the qn towards the last pg, guess how bad was it?)
Physics--S (I'm NOT going to get an 18 again!!)
Econs--E (Hope can pass ba...)
CLL--C (Tricky question, cos i never know where my crapping skills are going to land me...)

Well, IF i can pass everything this time round, it would be a GREAT achievement! Haizz....

Went back for homecoming day yesterday at chs, and i found out that the school is looking more and more like a museum. Maybe Hakboon can consider charging visitors admission fees next time to appreciate the 'exhibits' and to earn money as well...Splashing white paint on the roof "A Gentlemen and Biligual scholar in the making" If you tink that's not ridiculous enough, there are even "flying birds" in the sky outside the general office. Not to mention the porcelain "showcase" outside the staffroom...I've nothing to say, what is the sch turning into? what's on hakboon's mid these days? Have he not screwed up the sch enough?

But then our class tile painting outside the staffroom which we did during youth day 2 years ago was still intact, although its been corroded a lot. At least that was one of the MORE familiar stuff around. Saw zhongwei, leech, sherman, ruikang, jiasheng there also. Jiasheng looks much more muscular and mature after entering army. Ruikang has finally grown taller!! And some of my juniors have grown taller as well, like victor. Wilson, kr were also there as well. ks came towards lunchtime after his tuition, and he has another tuition in the afternoon...wah seh, damn zai! And also spotted toon, jon and sng. Toon shaved his head for fun i guess, but i guess they didn't change much afterall.

Middle finger pointed at the big cheena poster as usual, and did i mention there was a NEW pond outside the music room? There's seriously a lot of unnecessary stuff around...and most of the teachers are unhappy about it, but then, wad can we do? Suah, tristan fernandez, edwin heng, alice long were still their usual self...

Make a surprise trip to the national stadium with jy to watch the s'pore vs australia match yesterday. Was intending to watch at home cos of the SLIGHTLY ex tic prices, but then, my bro kop some free complimentary tics from general office during homecoming day. Not a total full house but we did catch some action. Some yalam shouted "Let the lion eat the kangaroo!" very funny arh...then there was this dancing kid ard 8-9 yrs old coming out from the fans to dance on the pavement with the music, damn zai lah seriously. Then everyone was taking photos and impressed by him. The australian fans were quite friendly as well, a total contrast to the last few times i came here with hostile away fans...They even did the kallang wave with us and there was no division of home and away fans.

Although we lost 3-0, i tink both teams were quite evenly matched. The main difference was that australia made their chances count, but we were let down by poor finishing, most notable by indra sahdan, and their build and physique were much stronger than us, you can see the clear difference in size even from so far. Oh ya, and we saw this teenager Hariz Harun playing for the national team. Guess how old is he? 16 years! A St Gabriel sec 5 kid playing for the national team, seriously very very very zai.

Happy Youth Day everyone:)

2007-06-24T18:26:00.000+08:00

GGXX!

GOOD GAME X 10

2007-06-15T19:31:00.000+08:00

Now i finally knew kinwai meant by saying he felt emo after going to cmpb a few days ago, cos i seriously became damn emo today after ns checkup at cmpb, a little angsty even. To all those guys who haven went there yet, please be mentally prepared...Cos once i stepped inside, i knew this place is gonna make me...yea emo, also dunno how to describe that feeling, guess only those who went there before will feel it.

And the place that its located is damn ulu, not much civilisation observed, where the hell is this place? Took 57 there which was fucking long (yea i had to use that word cos i sat on the bus until my butt hurts!) And to start up my day with a heavy rain when i reached. No umbrella, so had no choice to take cab frm the bus-stop opposite. When the cab stopped the meter still stays at $2.50, wtf? The first thing inside there is to surrender your camera phone, pls lah who in the world today doesn't own a camera phone?? so i'm temporarily cut off from civilisation...

Totally agree with j-wei about the part about them being so systematic and gay. Its so systematic cos the people there have to repeat their instructions for dunno how many zillion times a day, yea like robots precisely! (Like the man at the 1st counter "1st time here? highest eduation attained? what sch now? take a seat and we'll call you later." repeating again and again) And to kop from j-wei's line "they look gay and they sound gay and they act like gays oso. but u can't blame them cos the only thing they see inside are guys and more guys day in day out." So i seriously think they are all gays...

Everything went as planned but i'm seriously very pissed off with my bloody eyes. Cos "HIGH MYOPIA" (as indicated on the paper) cos me to get PES B when i got PES A for all the other stations. Wah seh gg liao, later cannot see properly shoot my own team mates...

Saw wei han, kahhwee, weiqi, and also lan guan there. Weihan reached like 45 mins earlier than me, but was still stuck at the IQ test when i zao from this freaking place. Come early come late also no difference one. And also get to know this jj guy cos the 1st thing we did together was to urine on some piece of paper, i decided to pass to the personnel holding the dry side, and the person o.O "No No, don't pass me the paper, juz like me see can already. okay can throw away unless you wan to keep it" erps...

And for the most basic hearing station, i didn't knew what i was supposed to hear and didn't raise my hand cos i thought the sound might be some background noise or wad. Shit then he think i'm deaf is it? Then the guy tapped on the screen, signalling sth like "hello hello, hand hand!!" Ohh then i started raising my hand once hearing the beep.

Oh did i mention about the Gay X-man? Okay this guy confirm is gay one, i see his face, his tone and actions already know. "Vincent, take our your shirt" "Vincent, push your chest against the sensor (forgot wad the machine is called)" While taking X-ray on my chest, he said these is a very suggestive n seductive tone really, and he began touching "all over my body" juz to get me in the "right" position...wad lau, ji scary sia...

Oh and the blood-taking station, they took a few drops of blood on my middle finger 1st. Then have to queue up for dunno whatever thing. Thought it was measuring blood pressure when the guy asked me to stretch my right hand on something. And there comes this convo below:

Me "Eh sir, take blood pressure is it?"
Sir "No lah, take blood"
Me o.O "I thought juz now take already???"
Sir "This time take more lah!"
Me "......"

okay i'm someone who faints at the sight of blood, but the amount they took now was erm...a lot more than the last time....When i saw how much they took, i was like "ooo, a bit more arh..."

Oh ya, i tink it was station 5 or wad. When you open the door and see 10+ guys half-naked in shorts only. Not then i've never seen this sight before, but its been quite long since my chs days...And the ECG room was damn funny lah. Go in there and u find yourself with wires and censors all over your body, my feet, my arms and even my nipples (matthew: "eh they use crocodile clips arh" those that we used to connect wires for physics...) I seriously dunno why they have to clip that thing on my nipples (matthew: to check for milk?) and i laughed like hell lah when they put those things on me, juz like kezhong. Then the guy there give me that kind of look...

And the part about taking off your shorts and underwear and cough, with the guy looking at my dick, and even asked me to cough louder, i seriously dunno what's the point? Got link? Maybe to check if my dick got erect or wad? Or see if i'm gay when my dick erects right in front of guys? erps...but the dental gal checking my teeth was quite chio...hahaz, heard some people kena the jaw x-ray...

Oh and the last station was the iq aplitude test which everyone has been telling me. Its gonna to determine what unit you'll get posted to. Took around 2 hours inside, didn't know that there's time limit for each section, so i took it laxing and became quite slack. Then my screen suddenly blanked out and said that my time is up for this section and the take a rest before the next when i haven even answered all the questions in that section! Arghh...means i tio low IQ is it? Then the turning of the shape one was quite sian lah, makes my mind spin like crazy.

And for the maths questions i juz use calculator and zham when those around me were doing workings like mad. So the rough paper they gave me was quite clean compared to others...For the memory test when they give you a long list of numbers to look at and to type out again, i juz copy down the numbers on paper 1st, LOL!! But it was seriously damn sian, and i was tinking when it'll end...

So that sums up my first trip to cmpb, good luck to those who haven had their checkup yet, it'll be a nice experience i'm sure:P took train home from redhill mrt cos dun wan my butt to hurt again on 57....

2007-06-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

Another week gone and next week will be the last week of hols, things are going faster than they should...Its make or break, DO or DIE!

Huangcheng bbq at zhaorui condo was erm...not that fun as i thought it would be, maybe becos of the low turnout rate ba. Thought a lot of ppl might be coming, but in the end only around 15 turned up. Her condo had quite a good feeling, dunno why, haha! Supposed to meet at bedok at 3, then when i reached there late, thought someone might ring me up to ask for my current location, but phone still remained silent, then when i saw only shengshi, yunzhou, yihan, chinkiat at the bus interchange, i was like...o.O quite"a lot" of ppl...Eh organiser? wad happened? why like that? And i thought there were a lot of gals than guys in huangcheng, but we ended up with male domination of 10 guys instead...o.O All the others went mugging is it? LOL!

More guys mean only 1 thing, that you have enough ppl to play soccer or bball, which brings me to the incident of the guai lan security guard. The bball and street soccer court were side-by-side, we booked the bball court at first. When we went to play soccer, the security came and kp us "you booked bball court, you muz play bball, you cannot play soccer" When we tried to move the goal posts to the bball court, he came and kp us also...Crap, they really got nothing to do lah, everytime come and kp us for nothing. Its like when we first came inside and started playing cards and rotting near some playground, the guard came and kp "you came here to bbq, you muz be at the bbq pit" And the bball court was also like shit lah, half-court, very small and congested, no 3-point line, and the hoop looks quite weird...

Didn't really ate a lot, and the food wasn't really that much...but quite ex i think. Took quite some time to start the fire, and my cooking skills are still cmi...guess i'm better off being someone that juz sit there, wait and eat.

Come to think of it, i guess joining huangcheng is something that i won't ever regret for life! How did i end up here in huangcheng in the first place? Dunno, think i juz 迷迷糊糊 got in juz like that, and randomly chose 灯光, with not much prior experience. Never thought i would be playing with drama until now, especially when i remembered telling some of my frens that i won't ever join drama in jc. Guess the unexpected happened for me. But if i've no passion, i would be here for 2 years also.

Realised how noob chs cldds is when i came here, although we did enjoy some of the most hugely successful years during my days in our short history. I have a wish of using what i've experienced here to help develop and improve the drama in chs, but i guess its easier said than done. I've really learnt a lot in huangcheng, and the experiences which i think would make up a major unforgettable part of my jc life. Enjoyed my time here fully, although there were some conflicts during the process...And i have a bunch of good and close frens as well. Hope our friendship will last forever, and our our bonds won't drift off with time, haha!

Guess the mugging season is here again, everyone is busy mugging, can see people mugging everywhere everytime, quite scary at times. Places like bishan library and bishan cc are being filled up so early that makes me pondering whether there are so many muggers in bishan? And i'll see matthew(who has grown fat surprisingly) almost everytime i come here with my frens...

NBA finals is here again, hope the cavs will triumph over the spurs!! Go King James!

2007-06-03T17:42:00.000+08:00

Yea, first week of holidays gone, in a flash! Things achieved? Nothing much i guess...Started on some mugging, but was really very inefficient.

They say that time flies, now i really have to believe. So, 3 weeks left, i'm going to 'enjoy' it as much as possible, oops...or rather, i'm going to mug extra hard, guess that's the most logical thing to do now. I'm going to show that i CAN mug! Guess i really need to get into a proper mugging mood, or rather, i'm trying to get into that mood now, but it seems to be a process slower than expected...

"Holidays are meant to be wasted", as quoted from bryan and kezhong, i once believed in it, but definitely not now. No no! Misleading quotation! Its not wrong to say that i've wasted the first week of my holiday, when i could really have fared better than this, maybe i really need a wake-up call, something big, something impactful, and something influential...the motivation is just not there, desperately need to find a source of motivation, something to look forward to, or something to work towards...Someone please wake me up!! Your effort will be gladly appreciated:)

Or maybe the last resort will be to lock myself up in a room and 闭关修行, not that i've never done it before, but sometimes maybe such acts are the most effective solutions...I won't force myself to mug if i really don't want to, mugging is an art, and maybe i'll have to make it a part of my life at this moment...Afterall, what life do s'porean students have anyway?

"Operation Chiong", as quoted from zhongwei during our route to the O levels...now its time for "Operation Chiong Part 2", yea! As of myself, i'll still abide by my own attitude of "Mug smart, not mug hard". Its very important to mug smartly, afterall, there are some very very sad people who mug really really hard, but their results are still screwed up. Guess i've no choice but to try and put things right from now on...

Living on borrowed time...when will i pay off all my debts?

Jus went cycling in the morning with zhong hao at east coast. We follow the usual route to Changi Village, this time in my personal best record of just an hour. Good thing was there weren't many cars on the road beside the airport runway route. It was just my luck to get a really lousy bike. The brakes were quite ineffective and there's something wrong with the gear as well. I can never reach top gear, and so my speed was like shit.

We decided to go further changi village and chiong to aloha changi, and even further to loyang industrial estate, but the worst thing was my bike chain suddenly break away when we were in the middle of nowhere, yea, it jus break! Tried to fix it but it was no use, and i had to bring it back to changi village to change a new chain...What a nice bike! In the end, we were quite behind schedule and had to chiong back to east coast, but still made it on time surprisingly. Guess i'll get my own bike some day after i've saved up enough money...

2007-05-27T10:55:00.000+08:00

There's a big difference between 中文学会 ke bah bah and 黄城 ke bah bah...

And it feels very different to be sitting down at the audience during 会庆 as compared to organizing it. Well, as yihan said, i rather help out in something than juz sit there and do nothing at all but watch.

I've finally stepped down as 灯长, and hand over to my trusted disciples danny and siheng. It was great to have them under me and i hope they will bring 灯光 to greater heights in the future, and define themselves what 灯光 will be like from now on. It definitely feels different when junyi was handing over to me last year, and right now, a year later, i'm in his shoes. Being through a lot this year as 灯长 i guess...Thanks to my juniors for giving me a deathnote pillow! Will surely bring it with me in my sleep!

Didn't see any 灯长 seniors this year, i guess all of them didn't book out in time, hahaz! Think they all have a changed a lot since entering army...

Then it was quite niao when suayu gave xinyu a 'hottie' sign, HAHAHAHA! Maybe she has the potential...

A holiday which is not a holiday has finally arrived...

2007-05-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

A year older, a year wiser? Or even a year more mature perhaps? But i seriously don't feel like growing up...2 years of teenage years left for me to enjoy...

Maybe i'll make better decisions from now on? Or rather am i able to think more sensibly? Or maybe people will look at me differently? oes 17 or 18 really make such a difference anyway?

What will life as an 18-yr-old be from now on? I really dunno, but as yunzhou mentioned, there are certainly more to expect in the next 365 days! Anything can happen in this world!

And Happy Birthday to Lee Heng as well (our capable 道长 who doesn't take photos), the first person i knew who has the same birthday as me, 真是同年同月同日生阿! As we looked at each other and laugh this morning without words, this day has finally come!

A great thanks to everyone who have wished me happy birthday in one way or another, glad that all of your remembered it:)

Birthday wishes? Hmm, let me think, i know i can't get everything i want, but i really hope to survive my j2 year, and well, survive the A levels as well! Arghhh, don't want to mention about studies...but i guess i would really want my life and everything to go well in the year ahead (yea consider that my life has always been in a permanent mess ever since i entered jc, but then isn't a messy life exciting as well?), and that life as an 18-yr-old would be more exciting than ever!

Have I changed? Dun think so, nothing's changed! Guess i'm still the same old guy frm chs. Well, it really takes something to change me, but i think i won't change much in the near future too...This is the same old vincent since u knew him, and he will remain juz like that:P

Well, the end of term 2 is finally approaching, i really need a break, and to chiong for the future! Don't you love the "holidays"? I know its not going to be a holiday for me, but I sure hope i'm not called back to school so often...At least i won't have to wake up at 630am every morning!

And finally there's phantom of the opera, which i'm completely amazed by it. I guess no word could be suitable to describe it, not even augy's vocab could do justice to me. Its one of the best performances i've ever seen. 70 bucks is pretty justified, and somemore it could only buy a seat at circle 3 2nd last row. 6 bucks for a pair of binoculars, anyone? And 25 bucks for a program! I'm willing to pay more to get a better seat! It was a dream from the start till the end, and i was even stunned through the interval, when i just stared at the stage and said nothing...It really worth it, would recommend everyone to watch it!

kop this old joke from ruikang's blog (he's finally in j1 le!) :

The more you learn, the more you know,
The more you know, the more you forget.
The more you forget, the less you know.
So.. why learn?

2007-05-21T20:43:00.002+08:00

Last day of 17, oh well...

2007-05-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

Study = Not Fail---A
Not Study = Fail---B
A+B: Study + Not Study = Not Fail + Fail
Study(1 + Not) = Fail (1 + Not)
Divide both sides by (1 + Not)
Therefore: Study = Fail
So, why study??

After sitting through a disastrous 绿园 experience last week, its time for round 2! Which was none other than vj's 海城之夜. Wasn't really looking forward to this, maybe due to the memories of 绿园 still on my mind...Saw j-wei outside the vj gate and he gave me those damn niao look when i told him about 海城.

Let's go straight to the performance. I would rate this show higher than the grassland 绿园 and 白云冈, at least it looks more visually impactful. There was a proper set design and somehow i sense they had a higher budget than the other 2 productions. The stage looks quite funny, no cyc in sight, and they like to spam visuals, sometimes not really suitable...Lights design was okay, considering the limitations of their audi, their focusing positions wasn't as bad as 绿园 though.

But this was a predominantly prc production. The program booklet was cool and not bad to begin with, but i couldn't spot a non-prc name as i went through the list. And there was clearly and over-spamming of guys and lack of gals in their production. Its not whether i'm desperate or not, but i dunno why they had to use guys to 反串 as gals if they had enough gals in the first place? Or is it for some special effects i dunno? I thought only guys schools like us had to do that cos of lack of gals, and we were always keen to avoid it if possible...And even their 反串 also a bit cannot make it, a distinct lack of gayness in them...I've seen no one till date who could 反串 as well and as natural as jiasheng. I mean, if he really keeps his hair long enough and dress up a little, he would look like a chio bu to me lah, serious!

From out of nowhere i can see the 司仪 wearing an all-too familiar cathigh green shorts...erps...dunno wad to say, got get license fee from cathigh? But after taking a closer look, the shirt was dunman's shirt, as seen by xinyu, cos i can't spot the 7 metal buttons and 2 communist pockets. Then, they also wore rj's green skirts with dunman's shirt as well...wad is this for?

Being a prc production means that its very difficult for us to catch what the actors were voicing due to their overly-exaggerated language and accent. A lot of times, when the actors said something, people around us started laughing out loud while we were looking blur...huh what happened arh? Are they saying some prc jokes that only prcs could understand? But the fact is that this audi was make up of at least 80% prcs!! Quite scary, especially during the interval when i went to the toilet and back (Saw someone flushing the program booklet down the toilet bowl, lol!) Along the way, i was overwhelmed by the amount of prcs with their accent and appearance, its was really quite intimidating, looks like we were the minority here...

Couldn't really understand the plot well, due to the way they talk as i've mentioned. And they actually put up a 古装剧 on the 3rd show. But the highlight was when some we saw the fireplace moving to stage right. Some 道具组 guy hiding behind it was trying to move it away but when it reached stage right, the opening was too small to accomodate him and the prop, so he has no choice but to stand up, exposing himself to all the audience, then try to exit desperately, damn funny lah. And the 4 walls behind were always moving around throughout the 剧, i know what they are trying to protray, but looks quite hideous...The 4th and last show was VERY VERY long and draggy, as usual xinyu was sleeping through, and i was literally praying that it would end asap...

谢幕 was okay lah, they dun have the usual groups of people running out onto stage, but instead everyone sat on the stage when the curtains opened...Spotted some of my past cldds frens, he bo, ya dong and company on the 1st row. Its been quite long since i last saw them, and shocked that wang yue was actually the vp and assistant production manager!! oh my, really can't believe it...Somehow proves that even a prc from our cldds has the potential to get such a position, or rather, do they have better people to begin with?

Piles and piles of homework coming up...haiz...5 months more to A levels, time is really running out, i'm already living on borrowed time now...Can i make it? Are there miracles in this world?

2007-05-06T16:12:00.001+08:00

Have i did the right thing? Do i only care about myself?

Seems like i always do the wrong things...But then what is right?

2007-05-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

Tank concert last thur was not bad to begin with, especially when his unplugged was so zai!! Rarely been to 校园演唱会 and this was a really gd chance for me, hahaz! Yida and his rj frens came to support too. Saw some non-hc people disguising themselves with hc uniform, lolz! Tank songs are generally not bad, but still feel that his face is quite gek, he's not famed for his looks anyway...too bad selina is not here, if not can sing 独唱情歌!

Went down with the other huangcheng people to 绿园之夜, the annual performance by tj. Took some time to travel there, especially when it was during peak hours...nearly slip and fell inside the train, but thanks to wen en and sylvia for holding me juz in time...It was a rare chance that so many huangcheng people actually come together to watch a performance, i guess we were at least 40-strong ba...The audi was only 2/3 full, and could have imagined how empty it'll be if we were not there. Sorry lah, no offence here, but it was really a waste of time and money for me...i rather pay 8 bucks to watch 你怕黑吗的 full run or even 道具换场.

Anyway, the performance was...erm...dunno how to describe, but let's jus say its better than 白云冈 ba, oops...I seriously dun see the point of flickering the lights for the entire play, distracting and unnecessary, and some of the focusing positions were quite off (okay lah, i was not so accurate also...), could spot the numerous wrong cues gone, and face lights was not enough at times (like my face lights a lot like that...) Besides lightings, the plot was another major disappointment, following the play was a great problem, and sometimes don't even knew that the play had ended. Okay lah, can see that they are facing shortage of manpower also, only 4 people doing lightings and sound, LOL! And even got 导演演戏...At least the backdrop for the 3rd play looks good.

The last time i went 绿园 was 2 years ago i think, it was not bad last time, dunno why standards have dropped to such a level, maybe times have changed...And the 谢幕 was...dunno what kind of debriefing will yunzhou give...

2007-04-26T21:17:00.000+08:00

GOLD. 28 points. YAY!!! YiPeE~~~!!! What more can i ask for? LOL!

One of the best showing in napfa, gold has eluded me for a very long time, now i've finally got it! Was aiming for gold initially, but quite unexpected that i got a personal best of 28 points, only standing broad jump has prevented me from a clean sweep of As. Guess it was really my day, and tyconess is back in action! Was only expecting to get in the range of 23 points, but think i over-achieved myself for almost all of the stations!

Guess i was really fired up today! Almost all items were at personal best lah. Did the 5 items in the morning and only ran 2.4 in the late afternoon cos it was raining. Was praying real hard for the rain to stop cos i don't want to redo everything all over again, especially with such satisfying results. Then it will be all wasted lah...Finally the rain stopped and the weather was not bad for a run! Haha!

Maybe all those training at the gym with sherman and running all kinds of routes has really helped. Never taken so seriously before, but no choice lah, since next year army liao. Here's a breakdown of my results:

Sit-up -- 52. Record best, stomach damn pain. Maybe all those inclined situp that i did at the gym really helped, sometimes really very gek. Was asking Lan Guan to help me fake at least a 44 to get A if i cannot make it. Did until 45 and wanted to rest when i realised that there's still some time. So decided to chiong until 52 before time's up.

Shuttle run -- 9.88s. Again my best result ever. Thought i might have some difficulties with this station since i never practise for a really long time, but hecks lah, juz run! And try to remember the usual techniques. Got 10.24s on my first try, but since its only 0.04s from an A, juz try again! LOLZ! Finally i break the 10s barrier!

Standing Broad Jump -- 233cm. My weakest station this time, and one which i'm damn worried about, cos i couldn't even get a D a few weeks ago. My technique is always not right and i seem to have a mental block of jumping far. When i wear my shoes, i get less than 200, but when i take out my shoes and socks, i jumped a lot better. Don't why, maybe got more friction arh...without shoes. But anyway, was very relieved to get a C at last! Cleared my most difficult station:)

Sit and Reach -- 56cm. LOL, seem to have the least problem with this station. Juz stretch as much as you can lah. Got a scare for the first few tries when the strap keep on coming out my knees. No worries for sit and reach!

Pull-ups -- 10. Even i can't believe it. Never did 10 straight before, only tried to gek until 9 recently, 8 was consistent, but somehow, jus found the extra ounce of energy to chiong for a 10 and an A! Another unexpected achievement! Consider that i did less than 5 last time, a remarkable improvement!

2.4km -- 10.20. LOL! Personal Best! Another station that i can't quite believe it too, and something to cheer about :P Haven't ran 2.4 at the school track before this year, since we pon pe everytime when we need to run...Have been in love with running these days, and ran for a stretch of 7 days straight before in preparation for napfa. My last timing was 11.08. Aim was to hit below 11, but was quite surprised when i got 10.20! Juz in time for an A! Great improvement arh...Running on trackmill may be a lot more comfortable, but i still prefer running on the real track!

Yay! Hahaz:)

2007-04-21T16:40:00.000+08:00

Napfa is coming real sooon, in fact its this thur! Have been trying to train hard for it, and doing some conditioning recently. Its the most important napfa for guys especially, with army looming next year...Think standing broad jump will be my greatest weakness now...I dun seem to grasp the correct technique when it comes to jumping, sometimes there is this phobia in me. I have to jump barefooted for the best results, since when i wear my shoes and socks, i jumped like less than 200cm? Maybe shuttle run pose a problem since i haven did it for a long long time.

But generally, i tink silver is taken for granted (like wad sherman says), and the thing is whether we can make it for the gold. Even people like cai jia shen can get gold and come and show off to me...wad the hell! But year by year, an item will sure screw up and cause me to be contented with silver, hope it doesn't happen again this year. And taking all 6 items at one go is no joke, since its my 1st time doing that. Who wants to enter army early?

Which brings me to the point of my obsession with running recently. Having been running for 7 straight days until fri, when the pain in my calves and hamstring give me no choice but to rest for a while. Throughout these days, i even found out some new routes to explore. R

Ran with sherman on monday around the nj road run route, which was around the terrace houses behing nj. It was around 4 km, but we ran a longer distance than expected...cos of a simple reason : WE LOST OUR WAY! Starting thru the nj side gate, turning right into the terrace houses after bypassing ny, it was the opposite to the usual route, and only sherman knows the way. As we were always surrounded by terraces, the run can be pretty boring and nothing exciting to be seen along the way. And its very hard to get a sense of direction. We made a lot of wrong turns and keep on ending up in th same position, frustration brews...But eventually, we finally reached the nj front gate, yay! Definitely, we ran more than 4 km...

Then for tuesday, ran with sherman again, this time to st nicks, and back. I thought st nicks was quite far from my house, but after running the route thru the other bishan park, and turning right up the slope, i realised that actually st nicks is not far away from our houses, in fact, its quite short. this might be a good route to use for the future. Go furthur and we'll see the chs campus last time at keban baru, when the current campus is undergoing upgrading.

Wednesday continue to run again with puikit, then thursday still got pe somemore. After that still played bball, and when i went back cathigh in the late afternoon, played bball with my juniors again. My legs are still feeling a bit pain, maybe i'm too hiong...the pain has already been there since a few days ago. But when i'm running, its would seem to jus go away for a short while...

Saw a very funny post in puikit's blog about the rationale of gals doing napfa. I seriously see no need for them to take napfa...why do they need these kind of fitness?

Juz came back from this year's 小品比赛, went there to support cathigh's cldds with ashhao and huaming. Seems like the standard has really decreased a lot this year, and i even see schools copying what we did during our days in cathigh. And they still call it chinese drama syf? funny sia, but everything is still the same, still a bit no0b as usual, only the name has changed...i nearly slept while watching the plays as a lot really cannot make it. Aiya, this is 小品 what, can't expect anything good right? Saw some schools copying what we did a few years back, looks like the aftermath effects of 面具 and 如来佛的第六根手指 still hasn't died now. Even heard some terrible misuse of 黄城 soundtracks, the most notable one being 等巴士's kiss the rain, which nearly shocked me...

Our play? Dun remind me, its one of the worst to come out of cldds in recent years, seriously. What's the fun of acting as animals when all of us are pure-blooded humans? chs cldds is really heading for disaster, and we were feeling quite disappointed and worried when we went back last thur to check their progress. The play was not the biggest problem. But the atmosphere was dead, the members were not committed, and there was no passion at all.

The huge influx of PRC is really a great problem, but then, there's nothing we can do about it. Maybe we should really propose a "How to save clddds" plan...I can't believe cldds has turned to become so dead after we left the school. I mean, in our days, although we were always crapping around, playing a fool, or even finding trouble, at least we are enthusiastic enough to do stuff, and the spirit of there. But now...i seriously dunno wad to say.

Even people like victor, whom i've seen him develop all the way since sec 1, told me that he dun wan to leave with regrets, especially when he is the current pres. He told me that he once looked forward to every wed during sec 1 and 2 when we were here, but now, he feels like quitting...I tink i've realised the inbuilt problems of cldds, but it may be a little difficult to solve. They seem to be participating syf for the sake of taking part in it, and even worst, taking past successes for granted. I know we can't expect them to reach the heights of our batch, but they are not even committed in doing it...sigh...

All the best to everyone taking their napfa!

2007-04-15T14:26:00.000+08:00

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are unique, witty, and even a little snobby.

You're quite proud of who you are, and nothing is going to change that.

You've paved your own way in life, and you've ended up where you want to be.

Underneath it all, you feel very isolated from the rest of the world.

It's hard to find people to relate to you on every level.

The mundane interests of your friends and family often bore or depress you.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

You scored as Satanism.

Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism!

Before you scream, do a bit of research on it.

To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan.

Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes.

Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype.

Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.

Satanism

92%

atheism

83%

agnosticism

75%

Islam

71%

Judaism

67%

Buddhism

58%

Paganism

50%

Hinduism

46%

Christianity

33%

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you save for a rainy day.

You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match

Who's The True You?
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2007-04-08T10:50:00.000+08:00

Well, the end of the road, the end of the journey, isn't it? We, the 26th generation of 黄城人 has to step down, and our juniors have to take over us eventually right? 我们终于要退休了!

Many thoughts went through my mind when the NEW generation of 执委 and 筹委 were announded yesterday. It's really different going through the elections as a j1 or a j2, although i didn't run for it last year. These will be the group of leaders who will decide the faith of 黄城 next year. At first i was quite worried about whether they can make it or not, but i guess its normal for us seniors to worry abt our juniors, we just have to trust them with the job.

Me, sheng xu and lee heng had a long "msn" paper chat during the 执委 elections yesterday, commenting on the candidates and everything, which finished the last page of my 天书!

2 new 灯长s as my successors, a start of yet another journey for them, but i can entrust this responsibility to them. Now that 掌门人 is gone, hope my disciples will bring 灯光 to greater heights and upload the glory and legacy! Hahaz! I guess i'm proud to have them as my 组员s.

Maybe we have officially stepped down, but as junyi says, my job as 灯长doesn't end here. There's still a lot of work to do in guiding my 2 new 灯长s to future glory, juz like how junyi spend so much time and effort to teach us last year. How successful they are next year? It'll depend partly on me frm now on. But there will come to a point when i'll have to let go and they'll are on their own.

Maybe there are things that i can improve on this year, things i've not done well. Sometimes its really frustrating when you feel that you have the ability to do something well, but in the end, it was not what you expected to be. But junyi was telling me, he himself also have this kind of regrets last year, 今年做过的东西，过去就过去了，想太多也没有用，只要尽力而为就行了。Everything has ended, there's nothing i can do. It'll be a fresh start for my juniors from now on, and its up to them to define what they want 灯光组 to be like next year, and to have their own style!

To have elections and 小黄城 on the same day was quite long and tiring, but items put up for 小黄城 were not bad lah, seriously. Especially my 灯光组, even thought of using the flourescent tubes and OHP to have lighting effects...but most of it were lame and niao......And got ppl actually guess that my baby photo looked like xinyu??? Wad the......that's the greatest insult of my life!!! Lolz!

Well, guess this is really the end. Jiayou for the NEW generation :)

Kanon really rox man! Very touching and emotional, i really cried while watching it lah. Haruhi is also another ownage anime. Guess i'm really caught up with anime these days. Not really an anime fan lah, but thnx to shengxu, got some cool anime to watch!

2007-04-01T11:24:00.000+08:00

愚人节快乐！幸好今天是星期天，留在家里还是最明智的选择，哈哈！

黄城收工后，又到了接棒的时刻。长江后浪推前浪，谁能成为下一届的灯长，延续灯光的火焰？老实说，我还蛮担心下一届的接班人是否能胜任他们的职责，把黄城做得更好。无论前台还是后台都没有一个真正的“强者”出现，也没有多少具备无限潜质的人选。。。

终于要卸下灯长的职位了，是高兴还是难过？但对黄城的奉献绝不止于卸任之时。和组员们相处的三个月中，起码了解他们的性格与办事能力，心中已有两个适合的人选，但是要找两个又能一起合作的组长又是另外一回事了。选灯长还真叫人伤脑筋，尤其是今年的情况。他们所作的东西和表现的态度，和我去年作为组员时大不相同，也不知是好事还是坏事。分析了各个组员的本质，简单来说，无论交棒给谁都是一个大冒险。也许我应该更了解他们，更相信他们，或者他们真正有潜质也说不定。灯光 will be in safe hands next year, i pray...

不知当年俊毅学长交棒给我时是抱有什么感受？也许是在我身上赌一把，希望我能胜任职责。

担心有什么用呢？星期六等着看好戏吧！到底能不能成功，就看下一届黄城人的造化了。

MaY 灯光 ShInE FoReVeR!

2007-03-24T22:36:00.001+08:00

A turbulent week has passed...Just when some people around you are celebrating the end of blocks, getting crazy, and also trying to suan you, the truth strikes! Damn, there's still physics waiting on monday...not that i'll really chiong during these 2 days anyway...

How to sum up the blocks until now? SCREWED, that's the perfect word. Well, except C.Lit, when my crapping skills really come in handy. Jus hope that i can get some 'decent' marks of that. C.Lit remains the subject that i stand the most chance of passing...

Guess wad i did yesterday? Went to play pool wif bryan, yeo, kinwai, sherman and puikit when our(me n bryan) blocks still haven end...cos i was not really not in the mood for physics and was mentally drained after the C.Lit paper. Didn't had a good game though, was rather noob, missing shots n giving foul balls like crazy, maybe my mind was not really on pool...Bryan was asking me if i really went crazy by playing pool in the middle of blocks...Its not a matter of feeling stressed. I dun tink i'm even stressed at all becos of the blocks, and that's a problem. Blocks seems to be of a lower priority in my mind...I dun seem to care too much about it...when its supposed to be of TOP priority.

Jus came back from a treat by eugene, our dearest lights senior and one of the BEST followspot operator! Quite rare to see him giving treat, which we had at Marina Square Swensens. He still hasn't changed much, and going to army soon, where i can have my fun there next year.

So monday's the end of blocks for me. I guess I'll be quite indifferent when the time comes. Whether it ends or not will not make a difference to me. My spirits won't be as high, and my mood won't be as good. I thought my life will be back to normal after huangcheng, but it didn't.

VT lights, things that i play with, courtesy of zhongwei!

2007-03-17T19:18:00.000+08:00

I seriously dunno wad is happening to my life these days. Everything seems to be in a complete mess. And I dun feel like doing anything at all…

Maybe its because of the post-huangcheng blues, maybe I’ve still not recovered from that. It’s true that I really miss the good old days in huangcheng, the fun and crazy times and also the moments of despair, anguish and sadness…I really dun mind doing everything all over again if its possible.

Maybe I’m juz not able to face up to reality and still living in the past, or worse, running away from reality. In a state of denial...

Looks like my block tests are really screwed up, even before it has started. I TRIED to mug, but it doesn’t seem to be working. Nothing seems to get inside my mind these days. Staying at national library from morning till night doesn’t work as well. Maybe I’m still not in a proper state of mind to mug. I’ve totally given up on it…no way I’ll pass with my current situation…I never thought I can do well anyway...

Maybe everything’s juz part of life, and life sux, seriously...

2007-03-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

黄城夜韵结束了。。。

落幕的那一刻，眼泪夺眶而出。。。结束了吗？

是高兴，还是难过？

不知道该说些什么，真的不希望黄城就此结束。

但快乐的日子总有结束的那一天。

这几天的黄城后遗症特别严重，提不起劲来做任何事情，脑海中就只有黄城。

我要唱一首华初的歌。。。